So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
And now I'm walking in the park
And all of the birds, they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
Oh yeah, I'm never really ready, yeah
Oh yeah, I'm never really ready, yeah
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new luck upon me
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair
I am in repair
And now I'm walking in the park
And all of the birds, they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me
Oh, it's taken so long
I could be wrong, I could be ready
Oh, but if I take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
Oh yeah, I'm never really ready, yeah
Oh yeah, I'm never really ready, yeah
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
I'm in repair
I'm not together, but I'm getting there
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It's about someone in a bad place. It think of it in general terms... the problem could be anything, but obviously he has changed for the worse, and is trying to go back to the way things were. He's very troubled and doesn't know how to go back, and sometimes isn't even sure he wants to, but he's trying.
It reminds me of my friend's struggle with her eating disorder though...