This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
All the concrete - words around here
I'm the bad seed - I think I swallowed it whole
You're the compromise - that never falls through
Never left behind - wanna break down
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy that always leads me
And all the broken hearts that hang around here,
All the sick things that make you pull out your hair,
All the bad dreams, all the nightmares,
All the apathy is always sticking it in
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy that always leads me
It always finds a way to break me
Down, down, down, down
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy it always leads me
It always finds a way to break me down...
And that's when I decided to break it
I'm the bad seed - I think I swallowed it whole
You're the compromise - that never falls through
Never left behind - wanna break down
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy that always leads me
And all the broken hearts that hang around here,
All the sick things that make you pull out your hair,
All the bad dreams, all the nightmares,
All the apathy is always sticking it in
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy that always leads me
It always finds a way to break me
Down, down, down, down
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
A thousand promises that never seemed to help me before
A hundred less and I would stumble till I found the back door
With nothing left to think I'll probably sit around and ignore
The apathy it always leads me
It always finds a way to break me down...
And that's when I decided to break it
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