You

It's not an accusation,
I freeze when I see you and I can still feel you breath.
You say I spread lies for attention
As you play victim, their minds set on who to believe.
I can't sit here pitied and self absorbed,
But I can't scrub this scent clean, I've tried before.
And I'm sure I can't explain in words
Or thoughts, the way I've kicked and fought
And fought myself to be sane,
To come clean and begin at last again.
Sure I could give up,
And those I praise wouldn’t give a fuck.
So much for friends, so much for feelings now.
Why don't you spit in my face
For bringing shame to your name?
You and I know for sure, behind closed doors it was you against me.
I won't sit here blamed and ignored
As I rinse the stains clean without support.
And I'm sure I can't explain in words or thought
The lesson I was taught.
As I fought while you used force for gain
And I was skin deep in shame.
Now I won't let up,
I'll tread the heals of your every step.
So much for friends, so much for feelings now.
Why don't you spit in my face
For bringing shame to your name?
You and I know for sure, behind closed doors it was you against me.
It was you against me.
Now it’s you against me.