So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Put a gun to my head
The storm's too deep outlook dead
Handing down that anger
Nothing good ever lasts
Moody violence
Now a fool in my eyes
What's the answer, I'll search till I die
Try a little harder I hear myself say
Make it last before it's taken away
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
Forced to forget this anguish
I'm half of what I used to be
Erase my memory
Now gone forever goodbye
But I know my memories won't die
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
Dead inside with a heart that bleeds
Relax my tension needs
Tightness suffocates
Too dense to focus
I'll see it through the day
No longer churning inside
Rotted memories inhabit my mind
My rage destroys the calm
Destroys the calm
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
The storm's too deep outlook dead
Handing down that anger
Nothing good ever lasts
Moody violence
Now a fool in my eyes
What's the answer, I'll search till I die
Try a little harder I hear myself say
Make it last before it's taken away
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
Forced to forget this anguish
I'm half of what I used to be
Erase my memory
Now gone forever goodbye
But I know my memories won't die
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
Dead inside with a heart that bleeds
Relax my tension needs
Tightness suffocates
Too dense to focus
I'll see it through the day
No longer churning inside
Rotted memories inhabit my mind
My rage destroys the calm
Destroys the calm
Wading through the darkness
My head held in my hands
Wading through the darkness
Lyrics submitted by Ghada
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