A Wish

I wish to feel smaller under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away

And I wish to feel smaller under your hands
Though you seem satisfied as you slip mine down your pants
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As you lift up my shirt after asking politely

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be
'Cause it's her you'll always love
And it's her I'll always envy
Wanna end this now so dreams of you won't keep me up
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away

And it's hard to find what I want
When it's buried beneath the biggest rock
I could pay lots of money to help lift it with machines
But I'm not sure you'd cooperate, not sure you'd come clean

And I wish to feel smaller under your sheets
I wish for the whole truth every time you speak
And I'm thinking 'bout how you care half as much for me
As I watch you arise, smoke cigarettes, sleep

And I guess it doesn't matter what I say or what I seem
You stuck what I felt for you in the pocket of your jeans
Ignoring me the morning after isn't enough
And I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough
Yeah, I swear I'm gonna cry, I'm sick of trying to be tough

And my blood won't stick to the confines of my veins
And your heart is gonna tear mine away
Is gonna tear mine away