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The room's new carpet, and the walls' apartment hue add to the visitor feeling I'm used to.
The morning window's freezing from outside. It wakes me up.
Wasting air to the falling light.
Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too.
I never gave a fuck, so why should you?
I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss.
You were faking through relationships to rot.
This is not my home anymore.
All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks,
so in a few years they're meaningless.
Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess.
Please know I tried.
Smile, smile.
Smile for all.
I can't smile anymore.
I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide.
It's encroaching on our side.
The wave parade is drowning me out too.
It breaks me up.
Wish I could have done more to you.
They used your body up, leaving your guts dry.
But you never gave a fuck so why the fuck should I?
Now the face escapes me, but the shame's forever.
When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal,
you'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool.
And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up.
Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you.
It will be better underwater.
Don't pick me up.
The morning window's freezing from outside. It wakes me up.
Wasting air to the falling light.
Angel, you picked me up but the devil wants me too.
I never gave a fuck, so why should you?
I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss.
You were faking through relationships to rot.
This is not my home anymore.
All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks,
so in a few years they're meaningless.
Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess.
Please know I tried.
Smile, smile.
Smile for all.
I can't smile anymore.
I skip rocks to mock the clashing tide.
It's encroaching on our side.
The wave parade is drowning me out too.
It breaks me up.
Wish I could have done more to you.
They used your body up, leaving your guts dry.
But you never gave a fuck so why the fuck should I?
Now the face escapes me, but the shame's forever.
When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal,
you'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool.
And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up.
Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you.
It will be better underwater.
Don't pick me up.
Lyrics submitted by postlapsaria
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Its about being in a messed up relationship and how its so complicated that both are being screwed in the relationship. He then claims that when he wants to renew his life (through killing himself) she'll find him lying face down in the pool, but she won't even have to look, because she'll be dead there too.
So overall the song is about that mindset that many suicidal people go through, that they believe that killing themselves will be better than continuing living on earth.