Silver Sparklers Lyrics
a dream I cant remember.
And I dont think you took a breath,
from march until september.
When they sat me down and upped the dose.
Said son, tell us what to do.
This isn't only killing you.
This isn't only killing you.
I think that you could learn something from rats.
Ask them in your traps.
just after the rain.
Have you ever seen the stars,
through someone elses pain.
Have you ever blacked out,
With nothing in your veins.
Have you ever blacked out.
Noooo.
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.
These days these days I wake up,
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.
I was on the phone with hell.
I was hoping to hear something I could understand.
When I saw you walking up the road,
your love and desperation,
lighting up your face.
I think it cost a dime
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.
(These days these days I wake up,
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.)
These days these days I wake up,
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.
(these days these days I wake up,
with silver sparklers burning in my eyes.)
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god I am sorry.
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god I am sorry.
I'm sorry.
I read somewhere that this song deals with the singer's father's reaction to his struggles with mental illness. I can believe that, because a lot of the sentiments (the "I think you could learn something from rats" and the repitition of "oh my god i am sorry") is a lot like my thoughts for my own parents when I was deeply depressed. Amazing, amazing song.
couldn't have said it better myself.. i always feel that way. in regards to my poor mental health and psychiatric over-medication since the age of 14 (though completely necessary in keeping me able to continue to try to be mostly-functional in society), i always feel so bad and guilty about the way that i've turned out, now at 21, (even though i know i can't help it; i never CHOSE to have the almost-incessant inability to feel anything positive about myself, my life, and the world in general--i wouldn't wish these feelings on my worst enemy) and how it must...
couldn't have said it better myself.. i always feel that way. in regards to my poor mental health and psychiatric over-medication since the age of 14 (though completely necessary in keeping me able to continue to try to be mostly-functional in society), i always feel so bad and guilty about the way that i've turned out, now at 21, (even though i know i can't help it; i never CHOSE to have the almost-incessant inability to feel anything positive about myself, my life, and the world in general--i wouldn't wish these feelings on my worst enemy) and how it must make my parents feel (like they did something wrong, failed me somewhere along the line), especially when they don't at all deserve to deal with my bullshit because i couldn't have asked for better parents. sometimes i feel like a fake, like a fraud, because i have no typical excuse for being so mentally unstable and just completely fucked up in the head. i wasn't raped, wasn't abused--nothing bad happened to me growing up. i always wish i could change myself, change the chemistry of my brain, change my family's genetics and predisposition to mental illness--if only for my parents' own peace of mind. i want that more than anything. even though i know that they don't judge me or my situation or condition, and they mostly understand what's going on with me, i still sometimes wonder if they ever ask themselves where they went wrong... but if i let myself think that way too much, the guilt could suffocate me. i wish i had all the right words; i wish i could adequately explain that it never had anything to do with them or how they raised me, and mostly that they nevre did anything wrong. that it's not them; it's me. my brain just isn't quite right.. and i don't even remember a time that i actually felt like a halfway normal person.
My friend showed this song to me and we both really liked it, but we didn't know what the chorus meant, but one time it just hit me.
"These days I wake up, with silver sparklers burning in my eyes."
It means he wakes up crying, 'silver sparklers' are a reference tears in his eyes, burning like your eyes do when you cry. Tears in your eyes cause everything to look starry like silver sparklers.
From that the rest of the song can be understood fairly easily. At least that's how I take it.
This song is totally incredible, I'm just waiting for this record to pop through my letter-box.
Especially the ending.
"Oh. Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god I am sorry. Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god I am sorry. I'm sorry."
Incredible. It's not just the words, but the driven passion behind it when it's sung.
Just to correct a lyric above- the line should read "They say rats flee from sinking ships". Once you read it like that, the whole rat reference makes more sense.
actually it's "they say rats leave sinking ships."