Held

I'm pretty sure it's "Not wishing for their destruction." He's fine letting the jets be.

Here's the music writer Mark Richardson:

"You think that to be a man means to keep this tough exterior apparent at all times. And to allow yourself to be held just like a 'big old baby' is to let go of that completely. That's complete vulnerability, 'surrendering to your charity,' as Callahan says in the next line, but it's less about being physically vulnerable (though there is that too) than emotionally vulnerable. You have to believe that someone could care about you even if you regress to an infantile state."

beautiful imagery. beautiful message.

I think this song is essentially about a vindication, or re-birth of some sorts. He describes allowing himself to be "held" and "surrendering" which describes his new philosophy on life, to let things happen, rather than trying to force them in his favor. The jets he wishes for their destruction, might be a symbolic way of letting them destroy the old him, or to simply allow what may come to come (even if that's destruction, death, or a new and positive world.) In the end, I think it's about allowing the world's, and peoples, energy to effect him for once.

I'm wishing for their destruction orange and black in a perfect blue sky