Leave The Light On

Listened to this song so many times, especially in moments where I felt really horribly, this is a real help, it's like she's saying to me that she understands how I feel, it's not abnormal to feel bad and to struggle on things, and with very beautiful words she proves me that she really does understand, that it's not one of those hollow phrases that you here sometimes from people..

I thought that "I leave the light on, better leave that light on" might mean that she always stays alert, because of her hurtful past and childhood, she always keeps the lights on, so never at ease because when you are sitting in the dark, you can't see if there is a danger/person with bad intentions coming..

"God bless the child with the dirty face... she leaves the light on, I still leave that light on" When she was a child, she always had to watch and be careful, because she was never sure if she was safe, and now, as an adult, she still kept that habitude to be in a state of alertness, very aware of what's happening around her, ready to react.

Also this line says that: "On the run, on the run on the run from myself, from myself and everyone, I leave the light on, better leave that light on" Doens't want to face her real inner self, her own demons and all, because she's to afraid, so she leaves the light on in her own consciousness, avoiding to go deep in there in that unknown dark.

I have so much to say about this song that moves me so much! It moves me to the fullest! this is what some of it means to me :)

"I went from zero to minus ten"

-To me this me that her mood, on a scale from +10 \ -10 she was on a 0 (whitc is not so great :S), and then her world colappsed somehow and she all of a sudden found her selv down at minus 10.

"I drank your wine then I stole your man. I leave the light on, I leave that light on."

-Through the intire song the light (like a nght lamp that she can leave on at night) means comfort and safety. Bssic human needs. But here it seems to me like she is using it as a comfort or excuse to her self after having an affaire. This is just me thinking, but it could very well be that the reason she is having an affair in the beginning here, needing that mail attention, is because of what she tells about leter on, that she had an abusive father (in one way or another) and lacked attention: "Daddy ain't that bad he just plays rough"

"I ain't that scarred when I'm covered up "

-When she is covered up, eighter with chlotes or having on a mask to protect herself, it is as shes trying to cover up what has happened to her self and to everybody. Later on, at the end of the song she sings something simular. She is trying so hard to be strong. ("I anint THAT bad\sad\scarred) "I ain't that bad I'm just messed up I ain't that sad but I'm sad enough"

"Little girl hiding underneath the bed was it something I did. Must be something I said. I leave the light on, better leave the light on."

-It means that she needs the light on at night so can feel safe, like a little child. After all... the need to "leave the light on" started when she was little, and went on throug her intire life. Her father also made her feel guilty for something she now think she did and thet she needs to be punished for. To comfort her self she would like the light on.

"17 and I'm all messed up inside I cut myself just to feel alive"

"pretty scars from cigarettes"

Singing about self injury so openly is a really great thing, and whith all the stuff shes gone throug its easy to see why she needed to feel alive so much.

"21 on the run,on the run, on the run from myself, from myself and everyone" This is pretty obvious, but its sad to see that she couldnt face her problems and overcome them, but instead ran away (like a lot of young people do when everything seems hopeless and to chaotic to deal with).

"Cause I wanna love I wanna live I don't know much about it I never did, I don't know what to do, can the damage be undone I swore to God that I'd never be what I've become Lucky stars and fairy tales I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well"

She didnt wish this life for her selv, and all she want is to be happy. But to all of a sudden start to live, is not easy when you dont know why. Its like eksplaining how "yellow" looks like to a born blind man. Seems so hopeless. The song is filled with frustration here, and she screams out that she doesnt know what to do. And all she can do now is to bade herself "in a wishin` well."

You can feel the pain in this song, and for some reason that makes me feel better.

leaving the light on symbolizes a way to find you're way back, to perhaps innocence that was stolen

to me it starts off in the 1st verse how things went from bad to worse. then in the 2nd verse talks about an abusive past. the chorus goes on to how as life went on things were bad, from cutting herself to running away from the problems. saying that she "better leave the light on" is saying that she needs to stay alive because of the "cause I wanna love i wanna live " quote. the last verse she says i swore to god id never be what ive become. and i think a lot of people have that issue. she also talks about happy things representing that she wants to change from hurting herself and getting hurt to good things and a happy life

i know that she struggled with an addiction, (whether it was alcohol or drugs, im not sure) and once i learned about her past, it was easier to understand this song.

mind blowing song.

I seen myself with a dirty face, I cut my luck with a dirty ace I leave the light on I went from zero to minus ten I drank your wine then I stole your man I leave the light on, I leave that light on.

she doesnt feel good enough, never felt like she was worth more than zero.. when she drank she went out with men who had relationship to feel she was worth.. she feels safe with the light on

Daddy ain't that bad he just plays rough I ain't that scarred when I'm covered up I leave the light on Little girl hiding underneath the bed was it something I did Must be something I said I leave the light on, better leave the light on.

she loves her dad and she feels she would betray her dad so she minimizes what she went through what her dad did to her. she doesnt want to admit what he did to her so to help herself not feel hurt she covers herself in away putting herself aside. She blames herself and asking what she did to cause her dad to abuse. She feels safe with the light on.

I wanna love I wanna live I don't know much about it I never did 17 and I'm all messed up inside I cut myself just to feel alive I leave the light on 21 on the run on the run on the run from myself

She knows what she wants, she wants to live life to the fullest she wants to love and wants to be loved she wants to live her life she doesnt know how to live but knows she wants to be herself and live life she feels she never lived life, at 17 she must have realized her life was I dont like the word damage, hurt.. to feel pain she multilates at 21 she knew she kept the light on and she ranaway from herself, maybe getting high, numbing herself not to feel

From myself and everyone I leave the light on, I leave the light on Better leave the light on.

she runaways from herself and everyone still leaves the light on in away she knows and have hope too in her life, she knew when she says better leave the light on

Cause I wanna love I wanna live I don't know much about it I never did, I don't know what to do, can the damage be undone I swore to God that I'd never be what I've become Lucky stars and fairy tales I'm gonna bathe myself in a wishin' well Pretty scars from cigarettes I never will forget, I never will forget I'm still afraid to be alone wish that moon would follow me home I leave the light on I ain't that bad I'm just messed up I ain't that sad but I'm sad enough God bless the child with the dirty face who cuts her luck with a dirty ace She leaves the light on, I leave that light on

she knows she wants a better life than she has and wants love and to live life she had hope so kept the light on, the light gave her hope. although she doesnt know how to live life she knows she wants it yet doesnt know how to live life and doesnt know how to go about it to get what she wants. She wants to know if pain will ever go away and asking it the damage that caused her to be messed up in her life can ever be removed, healed, recovered. Growing up she promised to God she would never become like her dad or mother, yet she did become like her dad or mother, and she isnt proud of it. Lucky stars and fairy tales like she considers others to be lucky the way she sees others living life and fairy tales too since fairy tales are not real, she considers them lucky. To get rid of her feeling of being dirty, to feel clean she knows she needs to bathe herself and when she says in a wishing well, here she knows she needs to have hope. she knows that her scars are pretty, yet comi ng from pain and the dirt she felt. she knows she will never forget what happened between her and her daddy. she knows she cant be alone and afraid of being alone in the dark. she knows her fears. she also knows she isnt bad, since ppl quickly judge others, she knows she has issues that may cause her to be like she is bad but really she isnt. She knows she is more than sad, depressed. Her being adult, woman she loves the child she was and knows that God loves a child she was, and that God loves children and blesses them. She still leaves the light on, she is working on herself and have hope

Jeannie