The Widow

Dead man, were you ever alive?
Or was I just a seed
Buried deep inside some woman you wed
Right before you crawled out of her bed
And crept down the hall?
Did you think of me?
Did you even for a second hesistate in the doorway?
It's just something that I'd like to know
Though I'd still love you if you told me
That you just walked away

My God, what a world you love
Where men bury their sons
And without thought just walk away

And my mother's heart breaks like the water inside of her

Dead man, is it being high that makes you alive?
It makes you leave behind
Three boys and a wife in '89
As the track marks inched their way up your arm
My mother taught my brothers and I
Not to call you daddy
But to call you Father

But I believe there is something here to be learned of grace
Cause I can't help but love you
Even with a heart that breaks
Like the promises that you made