My Exit, Unfair

My exit, unobserved and my homesickness, absurd,
I said "Water," expecting the word would satisfy my thirst.
Talking all about the second and third,
When I haven't understood the first.
Jonah, where's that boat going--
Your ship set with eager sails?
There's a swirling storm soon blowing,
And no use, fishermen, in rowing from the consecrated whale!
Just like the clouds,they bring a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall, I felt the crowds bring a loneliness and a hard rain's gonna fall.
She always weighed me down,
But afraid I might need her, I dragged her around.
It's best to keep close sackcloth and ash in a whitewashed town.
She wore that phony smile on her face,
I guess like a bandage on a wounded place,
While I kept the keys to every old lock just in case.
Rehearsed indifference tossed aside
Our narrow arms spread wide,
"What unseen pen etched eternal things on the hearts of humankind -
But never let them in our minds?"
Oh, the clouds they brought a darkness and a hard rain's gonna fall,
And all my laughter ends in emptiness and a hard rain's gonna fall,
My every medicine causes more illness and a hard rain's gonna fall.
But until I let you go I didn't know.
You, were never mine, you were never mine at all!
Now I spend my days in ever-increasingly complicated ways,
Convincing myself of the rightness of each word I say.
My exit, unfair if unobserved!
Ya sabur subhannallahi a'udhu billahi minash-shaitanir-rajim.
Al-hamdu lilllah. Bismillahir rahmanir rahim.