So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Words don't seem to come so easy
When I need them oh so badly
Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords
Maybe I can give this another
shot or sing about a broken heart
Or imitate the way it feels
If this was happening for real
This distance seems closer
When you shove it in my face
This moment has left me with nothing else to say
I'm losing my interest with these empty pages
They're torn they have frayed edges
This dusty book
It bothers by my rusty eye
And I can't see and I can't breathe
Put me on the next page outta here
To live forever on this paper
Capture this void and fill it with
The frenzy in my voice
Killing time by drawing face
That stare back at me from the margins
In a sea of eight and a half by elevens
I'm drowning in
Treading through run on sentences
And sinking into empty text
I'll swallow the salt
And spit a few dry words out
No matter what I say
No matter what I write here
I'm sick of always
Lookin' at this page with a blank stare
You never seem to know
And they never seem to tell you
Words don't always come as easily
As you might want them to
Throw these pages into fire
And throw me with them.
When I need them oh so badly
Here's to playing tug of war with my vocal chords
Maybe I can give this another
shot or sing about a broken heart
Or imitate the way it feels
If this was happening for real
This distance seems closer
When you shove it in my face
This moment has left me with nothing else to say
I'm losing my interest with these empty pages
They're torn they have frayed edges
This dusty book
It bothers by my rusty eye
And I can't see and I can't breathe
Put me on the next page outta here
To live forever on this paper
Capture this void and fill it with
The frenzy in my voice
Killing time by drawing face
That stare back at me from the margins
In a sea of eight and a half by elevens
I'm drowning in
Treading through run on sentences
And sinking into empty text
I'll swallow the salt
And spit a few dry words out
No matter what I say
No matter what I write here
I'm sick of always
Lookin' at this page with a blank stare
You never seem to know
And they never seem to tell you
Words don't always come as easily
As you might want them to
Throw these pages into fire
And throw me with them.
Lyrics submitted by AFIncinerate337
Featuring Some of Your Favorite Words Lyrics as written by James Darrell Hargrove Derek Alan Bloom
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG RIGHTS MANAGEMENT US, LLC
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