This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
Hope you find out what you want
Already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
You can tell me how vile I already know that I am
I'll grow old, start acting my age
Be a brand new day in a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone
Call me a safe bet
I'm bettin' I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed
Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
So you can forget
You can forget
You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins
Call me a safe bet
I'm bettin' I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
I will die by your hand
Hope you find out what you want
Already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
You can tell me how vile I already know that I am
I'll grow old, start acting my age
Be a brand new day in a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone
Call me a safe bet
I'm bettin' I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed
Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
So you can forget
You can forget
You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before rain
You are the blood in my veins
Call me a safe bet
I'm bettin' I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
Only hoping as time goes, you can forget
Lyrics submitted by XBeautifulLetdownX
The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot Lyrics as written by Jesse Lacey
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I don's post this kind of thing very often but this is just the story of my life right now and I'm pretty sure I understand what this song is all about.
Put simply, it's telling the tale of a guy who's involved with a girl that he feels attraction to but isn't in love with. He doesn't feel as strongly for her as she feels for him - or at least as she used to. He starts by making promises and being the better person; he says if she needs him to move away in order to forget him then he'll do it, he says he'll cut himself off from her entirely if that helps. The chorus is fairly self-evident in its meaning. But then, in the stanza that begins, "It's cold as a tomb..." it's them spending another night together, probably drunk or lonely, and it's him pleading beneath the surface to himself to 'call it quits or get a grip.' He knows he's hurting her, and knows he needs to sort his head out and stop being so careless with her emotions, but he's incapable. In the long bridge section it's him falling back into a long list of platitudes about how much she matters to him, but the point is that she doesn't; she's just a painkiller, if you like, and he's using her for that.
That's what I read into it, anyway, because it's pretty much spot on as far as my life is concerned. My ex and I broke up a year ago and we've kissed often on nights out; at first, she would shout at me after it had happened and tell me I needed to think more carefully about what I was doing and fucking with her emotions. And she was right. But it didn't fix anything; when we're drunk and around each other we still end up kissing and/or sleeping together and it's nothing I'm proud of but I'm almost powerless to stop it. Almost. And the part of me that does have that capability is muted by my insecurities. I know she'll forgive me eventually for being so messed up and in turn messing her up, but I'd much rather she was just able to walk away from me, because even though that would hurt me for a while, it's almost certainly the best thing for her own head.
@3lancer This is 1000% spot on. the song, and the idea or emotion of the song, goes full circle. as soon as she is gone, he feels how cold and lonely it is. but when he has her, it\'s not much different inside except she is there to share it with him. that\'s not a relationship. so call it quits. or get a grip.