This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
My head will not rest on this pillow
As it's gripped in my arms tonight
Like reality, too tight
If a dream could last forever
I would hold you here
Time need not freeze, I need not fear
This world inside
Is a world I have longed to find
And I will not be afraid to love
I will not be afraid to lose what I once deprived myself of
My teardrops have salt-stained this pillow
As it's loosened from my weakened clutch
By the sun's light, too much
There's a hope today
That I'll find a way
This dream of life unreal to me
Sometimes I run and sometimes I crawl
Sometimes I fly and sometimes, I'm gonna fall
But this dream of mine will not change at all
As it's gripped in my arms tonight
Like reality, too tight
If a dream could last forever
I would hold you here
Time need not freeze, I need not fear
This world inside
Is a world I have longed to find
And I will not be afraid to love
I will not be afraid to lose what I once deprived myself of
My teardrops have salt-stained this pillow
As it's loosened from my weakened clutch
By the sun's light, too much
There's a hope today
That I'll find a way
This dream of life unreal to me
Sometimes I run and sometimes I crawl
Sometimes I fly and sometimes, I'm gonna fall
But this dream of mine will not change at all
Lyrics submitted by Shadee01
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