Carvel

First line: ”When I try I force it out Never looking in only out” basically means not dealing with the nature of the mental state that is causing the bad habits or self harm, in this case a really heavy drug addiction. Anyone who has gone through rehab or any form of self improvement knows that it is a mental and emotional game, the healing works inside out, not the other way around. He has made som big improvements there, but when he became famous in RHCP he was very young and couldn’t handle the pressure from the external world, being an introvert and shy person. He openly admits this and it’s the reason he quit in the first place. It can also mean hiding in that inner safe place, never seing himself with others’ eyes and using drugs to numb the emotions lurking in there, that are actually causing his insecurities in the first place. Being a drug addict is a “highly” (see what i did there? :D) contradicting state to be in, sometimes feeling like a god and sometimes feeling like a piece of shit wanting to die. He refers to this in the line “Heaven recieves you and throws you back” Also talking about the ups and downs in the end: “Up and down that’s how energy stays alive And I wouldn't have it any other way” This can be interpreted either by not wanting to change the habit, or in a more positive light with the law of polarity; that everything has an opposite side, you can’t have a bad without a good or an up without a down etc.. Either way this is an awesome song and like most of J-Fru’s songs they can be analyzed for hours! I will end by clarifying that this is just my interpretation, so chill out:)