I feel as if I have been dreaming
I am confused as to how I got here
One minute
I am heading down a path of destruction with no hopes but for death
Then there was you
You opened me to a different light
The path you lead me down was priceless
With one quick glance it was stripped from me
I was so ashamed I never let you be you
I have been puking with regret
I found myself again
And although we were apart
I managed to move on
Something was still missing
I made me sick
Far to familiar
I needed you once again, maybe now I can change
Maybe now I can secure my lumps
Have you ever just treated a person that you care about the wrong way and spent years thinking about how much you just ruined the best thing you ever had in your life? "mark hunter"
Sounds to me like he found a really good girlfriend, one he had hopes of marrying someday. The "With one quick glance it was striped from me" part is maybe she caught him looking at another girl and she left him. So he screwed it all up and is now spending "years thinking about how much you just ruined the best thing you ever had in your life". I love the ending.
I believe "Lumps" comes from the phrase "Taking your lumps" as in, making a mistake to grow into a better person. Having that experience doesn't make things easier to deal with all the same though, as is evidence from the song, where he's wishing he hadn't screwed things up and earned these lumps. It's kind of said in a cathartic way. As in, "the bright side of this learning experience is that I've fucked up the best relationship I could have ever had, but at least I know better now".