I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
I've got it now
Like a thorn in my side the size of a Cadillac
Drive it through
Cause backing up now would be next to impossible
I had it all
When I was with you I forgot about everything
18 months
18 months seems like fucking eternity
And you'll be there
To dry my eyes
When I breathe you in
In 97
I've got it now
Like a thorn in my side the size of a Cadillac
Drive it through
Cause backing up now would be next to impossible
I had it all
When I was with you I forgot about everything
18 months
I won't breathe for 18 months
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
Like a thorn in my side the size of a Cadillac
Drive it through
Cause backing up now would be next to impossible
I had it all
When I was with you I forgot about everything
18 months
18 months seems like fucking eternity
And you'll be there
To dry my eyes
When I breathe you in
In 97
I've got it now
Like a thorn in my side the size of a Cadillac
Drive it through
Cause backing up now would be next to impossible
I had it all
When I was with you I forgot about everything
18 months
I won't breathe for 18 months
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
I don't deserve this
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Great version of a great song,
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This song is one of ALK3's most amazing songs! They put everything they have into it live, its absolute genius, there is a live version out with a 2nd verse. Its very good, what an amazing band!
Back in the City The Sun bakes the trash on the curb where the men are pissing in doorways rats are running in herds
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Those words are the original ending, judging by those I think the song is about a girl, however the drug idea DOES make sense...
Theres an interview with Matt Skiba in a High Times magazine. He says something along the lines of everyone though 97 was about a girl but it was actually about when he got caught in his car with some weed and was bummed and had 18 months of probation.
This song rocks my world live... there's something extremely cathartic about repeatedly screaming "I don't deserve this'... oh how i love this band
I like the original version of this song better with the alternate ending...
i saw them do this live at manchester (and leeds too, 2 days before) but at manchester it was amazing, he broke off into tori amos half way through and we were so at the front, squashed.. half dead... but at the front. this rocks my world and my head and my boat x x
yo, yo, got this live bootlegged sorta romp thru this song that makes its meaning abundantly clear: pot. he says "smoking for eighteen months". the breathing and memory images are also clear, i think.
wow. how in love am i with matt skiba? very much. this song is genius...and beautiful.
I also "heart" Matt Skiba...the whole song reminds me about a bad breakup...18 months really does feel like eternity, guys.