Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
Sixteen just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
Sixteen just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
Sixteen just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait 'til I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
Sixteen just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over, we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait 'til I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
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Adam's Song Lyrics as written by Mark Hoppus Tom Delonge
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Thanks to Rock.Genius.com, I found this little tidbit. The line "Remember the time that I spilled the cup of apple juice in the hall" refers to a personal experience by Mark.
If I interpret this correctly, as a depression survivor (every damn day makes me a survivor again), and someone with some not-uncommon traits, this is a very familiar feeling. Some of us, many of those who suffer from depression, can "latch onto" and hold onto certain memories that are, overall, wholly inconsequential in life and just stupid little moments to other people, but major events and memories to us.
I remember once getting breakfast at a deli near my house when I was younger with my Dad and sister. I carried the bag with the rolls and bagels in it out. I stumbled or tripped a little bit as we walked out, and the bag flew out of my hands and spilled out onto the ground in front of the dumpster. As such places can be, it was wet, gross, sticky, and smelly, so needless to say, nobody wanted the things that'd spilled out of the bag. It turned out that mine remained in the bag - my Dad's and sister's spilled out.
My Dad snapped at me, kind of snarling out my name, and I immediately felt horrible and awful. I tried to insist we should go back inside and get something new, but my Dad grumbled that we didn't have time. When we got in the car, I tried to force them to take some of my breakfast - I don't remember exactly if they ended up taking it. But needless to say, it's a memory that became very stark for me, and one that often repeats in my head when I need even more stuff to feel bad about.
Like a lot of folks with mental health problems and depressive disorders, it plays on repeat in my head, and until I started learning to manage those feelings and issues with CBT and therapy, it could easily spark a major depressive episode.
Source: markhoppus.tumblr.com/post/6835631525/whats-with-the-line-from-adams-song-that-says