So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I waited patiently for you to come around
I sacrificed my sanity to keep from breaking down
I always thought of you and forgot about myself
But the only one you care about is you and no one else
I used to be so nave
And you never cared about me
Now I see that I can't achieve
Everything that you want from me
Honesty was all I asked but you just let me down
Countless times I gave you the benefit of the doubt
You think that I'm a fool you'll get away with it
But this time I'm not so willing to forgive and forget
Feeling unappreciated
Dedication understated
Everything's so complicated
I think that I'm underrated
You said you could handle it
You said go ahead and quit
Now you'll finally get your wish
So just try not to choke on it
I sacrificed my sanity to keep from breaking down
I always thought of you and forgot about myself
But the only one you care about is you and no one else
I used to be so nave
And you never cared about me
Now I see that I can't achieve
Everything that you want from me
Honesty was all I asked but you just let me down
Countless times I gave you the benefit of the doubt
You think that I'm a fool you'll get away with it
But this time I'm not so willing to forgive and forget
Feeling unappreciated
Dedication understated
Everything's so complicated
I think that I'm underrated
You said you could handle it
You said go ahead and quit
Now you'll finally get your wish
So just try not to choke on it
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its an awesome song! I love the last verse, especially the line, "so just try not to choke on it"