So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I kill the rhyme again,
I'm comin' sick and on time again
Words manfest from deep inside
Where people hide
Within it, chemical imbalance
On the triple beam Fuck what you heard, it's about what I seen
I seen it happen,
Back hand brand to face smackin'
Definite disorder,
Now his mindset is blackened
The doctors say he's got the brain of a murderer
This rugged style steals your brain like a burglar
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass
It's not receding my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
Go away, I want to be thrown away
Born sick, nothing in his hands but his dick
He couldn't handle pressure, he couldn't handle shit
For the life he was leading,
Led him down the wrong path
Where guns blast, don't give a shit
About the God's wrath
Don't want to talk to the counselor, Doctor
To tell 'em what's real, tell 'em what's proper
The situation's unclear like gray
And I know it gets worse everyday
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass
It's not receding my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
Go away, I want to be thrown away
I am a mess, I've made a huge mess
I can't control myself
I'm losing it, I've lost it
I've split all my marbles
'Cause i see you inside of me
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
A hyper spaz, and that is the way
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
I'm comin' sick and on time again
Words manfest from deep inside
Where people hide
Within it, chemical imbalance
On the triple beam Fuck what you heard, it's about what I seen
I seen it happen,
Back hand brand to face smackin'
Definite disorder,
Now his mindset is blackened
The doctors say he's got the brain of a murderer
This rugged style steals your brain like a burglar
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass
It's not receding my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
Go away, I want to be thrown away
Born sick, nothing in his hands but his dick
He couldn't handle pressure, he couldn't handle shit
For the life he was leading,
Led him down the wrong path
Where guns blast, don't give a shit
About the God's wrath
Don't want to talk to the counselor, Doctor
To tell 'em what's real, tell 'em what's proper
The situation's unclear like gray
And I know it gets worse everyday
My heart is bleeding and this pain will not pass
It's not receding my body going numb
A bad trip child, rolling stoned, keeping high
He don't know what he's doing
Go away, I want to be thrown away
I am a mess, I've made a huge mess
I can't control myself
I'm losing it, I've lost it
I've split all my marbles
'Cause i see you inside of me
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
A hyper spaz, and that is the way
Sometimes I want to be thrown away
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