So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I've had so many scars The last time I came found you and you broke my heart
I hope you feel something when people say you're gay
They feel sometimes you're great It will never be the same
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god
I didn't mean to break your heart I hope you know you mean everything to me
Yeah, I know I left some scars I wish you can give all your pain to me
Now you said so long
I hope this don't end up long
I know I did wrong Baby, give me one more chance, stay here with me
Yeah, I know I did it wrong when I ran around and cheat
Yeah, I know we did a lot, let you hang with the team
Yeah, this shit got me so numb, yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
Yeah, I smokin all that magic, yeah, like, can I feel a thing
No, like, I can't feel a thing
Yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
Like, I cannot feel a thing
Yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
I've had so many scars The last time I came found you and you broke my heart
I hope you feel something when people say you're gay
They feel sometimes you're great It will never be the same
Yeah, this shit don't feel the same, yeah, I feel like I am Autumn
Yeah I'm curing all the pain when I sip right down the bottom
Yeah, I hope I let you know that I had a lot of love for you
A lot of love for you, but you do not feel the same
You're always playing all these games
You done got me so insane
Hunnid shots to my brain
I just wanna gain your love again
Yeah, you know that I wanna be more than friends
We can be at the top right up in a Benz
But you know that you can change my amends
Many shit don't feel the same, all the other bitches lame
Girl, all I want is you I just want you to feel the same
Put my love in the sky, baby, just come be mine
Baby, you're my number one, yeah, not my number two
Girl, you know what to do
Yeah, I want you to love me too
But that shit not gon' be true
Want you to be my boo
Baby, you're my baby boo
Baby, you're not my number two
Yeah, my love for you is true
I don't know what to do
I hope you feel something when people say you're gay
They feel sometimes you're great It will never be the same
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god
I didn't mean to break your heart I hope you know you mean everything to me
Yeah, I know I left some scars I wish you can give all your pain to me
Now you said so long
I hope this don't end up long
I know I did wrong Baby, give me one more chance, stay here with me
Yeah, I know I did it wrong when I ran around and cheat
Yeah, I know we did a lot, let you hang with the team
Yeah, this shit got me so numb, yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
Yeah, I smokin all that magic, yeah, like, can I feel a thing
No, like, I can't feel a thing
Yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
Like, I cannot feel a thing
Yeah, I'm about to pop a bean
I've had so many scars The last time I came found you and you broke my heart
I hope you feel something when people say you're gay
They feel sometimes you're great It will never be the same
Yeah, this shit don't feel the same, yeah, I feel like I am Autumn
Yeah I'm curing all the pain when I sip right down the bottom
Yeah, I hope I let you know that I had a lot of love for you
A lot of love for you, but you do not feel the same
You're always playing all these games
You done got me so insane
Hunnid shots to my brain
I just wanna gain your love again
Yeah, you know that I wanna be more than friends
We can be at the top right up in a Benz
But you know that you can change my amends
Many shit don't feel the same, all the other bitches lame
Girl, all I want is you I just want you to feel the same
Put my love in the sky, baby, just come be mine
Baby, you're my number one, yeah, not my number two
Girl, you know what to do
Yeah, I want you to love me too
But that shit not gon' be true
Want you to be my boo
Baby, you're my baby boo
Baby, you're not my number two
Yeah, my love for you is true
I don't know what to do
Lyrics submitted by Demau Senae
Too many scars Lyrics as written by Jesse Vaughn Ii
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Definitely a love song...<br /> <br /> Great Music!