So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
(I was supposed to have some games, I'd love to play with you)
If you thought that I was leaving here
Can I find a way inside
Try to call it just an absence of faith
But I feel justified
You can't stare through this
There's nothing left in my heart
Bye for now
Just too long
There's no end in sight
Wot am I for
To be hurt more
I just don't like it here with yourself
I can't like you
Want to burn you
I wish you were dead
Cause if its hard you want out its no fun
Got left with everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
Its never the same
Once you played up to the end
Stop the noise
Get nowhere with your current state of mind
I even wonder why you're here please stay at home
Killing my laughter
Hurting my insides
You are played
Wot am I here for
To be hurt more
I just don't like it here with yourself
I can't like you
Want to burn you
I wish you were dead
Cause if its hard you want out its no fun
Got left with everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
If you thought that I was leaving here
Can I find a way inside
Try to call it just an absence of faith
But I feel justified
If its hard you want out its no fun got left with
Everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
(Its how I feel yeah its how I'm made yeah)
If you thought that I was leaving here
Can I find a way inside
Try to call it just an absence of faith
But I feel justified
You can't stare through this
There's nothing left in my heart
Bye for now
Just too long
There's no end in sight
Wot am I for
To be hurt more
I just don't like it here with yourself
I can't like you
Want to burn you
I wish you were dead
Cause if its hard you want out its no fun
Got left with everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
Its never the same
Once you played up to the end
Stop the noise
Get nowhere with your current state of mind
I even wonder why you're here please stay at home
Killing my laughter
Hurting my insides
You are played
Wot am I here for
To be hurt more
I just don't like it here with yourself
I can't like you
Want to burn you
I wish you were dead
Cause if its hard you want out its no fun
Got left with everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
If you thought that I was leaving here
Can I find a way inside
Try to call it just an absence of faith
But I feel justified
If its hard you want out its no fun got left with
Everything
Behind your smile forget that I was left with everything
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same to me
Never the same
(Its how I feel yeah its how I'm made yeah)
Lyrics submitted by EmoWannabe
Five Is a Four Letter Word Lyrics as written by Lee Gaze Ian Watkins
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