I tried to cry out from the inside, but I guess my soul did not pour itself out enough
Blood on the walls, flaming black, blood on the walls,
I saw you staring through the cracks
No one was to know what was happening in me I felt no love,
I felt no reason to carry on with my life
Everything was wrong, nothing was right, at least that is what I thought
Kids finding laughter at my expense
They were killing me on the inside they couldn't give up their pride
My heart was bleeding from so much grieving
On the outside I looked fine, you couldn't tell but on the inside was eternal hell
I got caught up in the moment of depression,
and before I knew it my body was lying on the ground
With a gun in my hand my hourglass was out of sand
Thanks to all the people who drove me to death
Without you I could of never ended my breath
Through your anger and hate, I was able to choose my fate
There was a way out, but I chose the easy route
Blast of a gun, breath runs out, final thoughts put to extinction
No more pain, no more love, for you have chosen suicide as the way out... help them
Ice cold fingers, body lays on the floor,
pool of blood you see, you scream out in terror
Her body is now a part of mutilation, her soul the victim of strangulation
I will not accept this evil anymore
I never thought of who I hurt or I never tried to look for the good
I'm sorry for whoever I hurt, it's not easy to look back on my life,
and know I did not know Christ
For now I live in a real hell
I wish I had another chance... then I would live my life with love


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    To me, this is a song about a girl who think that her life sucks and that no one cares for her. The kids always picked on her, and tore her down on the inside and everything seemed okay on the outside. So out of pain, she shot herself. After she shot herslef, she realized what she had done and that she has hurt friends and family. She also does not go to heaven and doesn't get to meet God. She always thought her life was hell, but now she suffers in the real hell not realizing how good her life used to be. I really like this song because I have written many poems trying to express this feeling and Underoath did better than I ever could.

    Suicidal Tendencieson June 29, 2002   Link
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    People calling this "death metal" are fucking morons.

    Eliminationon September 24, 2008   Link
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    Never heard of this band or song..... but I love it already. It fucking sucks thinking about suicide. I don't know if I'd actually do it, but I've come pretty fucking close for no reason what so ever. I think the main reason I don't think I'd do it is the one that was forgotten in this song. I don't wanna hurt anyone. Beautiful song...

    blinkbomberon July 30, 2002   Link
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    ive never heard of it either... wow its pretty sad... its my new buddy info.. hehe.. to read it aim me at unfunnn

    rhcpsavemegraceon August 27, 2002   Link
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    its about someone messing/bullying some to the point were they kill themselves and after.. he regrets it... pretty straightforward

    7under7oath7on January 02, 2005   Link
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    its about someone messing/bullying some to the point were they kill themselves and after.. he regrets it... pretty straightforward

    7under7oath7on January 02, 2005   Link
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    its about someone messing/bullying some to the point were they kill themselves and after.. he regrets it... pretty straightforward

    7under7oath7on January 02, 2005   Link
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    this is full on death metal, kinda weird as underoath are an emo band, also its about suicide which is kinda weird as underoaths record label are christian, tbh not too keen on the song, but seems very emotional with death metal music :s

    woooooooooon January 23, 2005   Link
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    Yeah they had a switch in lead singers and with that you usually have a change in sound but they are still incredible. I like Spencer's voice better, I can't wait to see them on the 28th of Feb. at the Taste of Chaos tour with Killswitch.

    JackH83on January 23, 2005   Link
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    This CD was released when Underoath was still on Takehold Records, but their new labels (Solid State AND Tooth & Nail) are okay with songs about suicide, just look at "A Boy Brushed Red Living In Black and White." But Underoath really used to be solid death metal and not this "pop-core" mess they are now.

    epyon346on April 26, 2005   Link

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