Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness

before you go off on someone, you might want to find out what their motive was for writing what they wrote. i am extremely ill as i have a condition called multiple connective tissue disorder, which encompasses a wide range of autoimmune diseases including lupis, rheumatoid arthritis, ankylosing spondylitis, autoimmune pancreatitis, ehlers danlose syndrome, posterior sclaritus, and linear coupe de sabre sclera derma (the most rare form) among other things. i have been living with this disorder since the age of 13 and it is slowly killing me...there is a possibility that i won't live past the age of 25. i am in an extremely serious relationship (we plan to marry in the next few years)...i was lucky enough to find my soul mate at a young age, but when i found out just how sick i was, i began keeping a book for him of my poetry and memories...just day to day things to let him know how much i love him and that even if i have to leave him, he will always be my first and only love. this was originally a musing...just some jumbled thoughts, memories, and images that i had put down on paper (excluding the mellon collie and the infinite sadness bit) while i was listening to this song. without trying, the words just kinda fell into place with the music, and i ended up with what i posted. so please make sure you have the whole story before you openly criticise.

the pumpkins have some of the most beautiful, heartfelt lyrics of all time...they are absolutely incredible...