Like a lot of the other comments are saying, I think this mainly about voyeurism. If the song was about his girlfriend, then why would he use the word spy. If you are a spy it means you shouldn't be caught, that is kind of the whole point, and if you are a voyeur, the whole point of the pleasure you get from it, is the fact that the other people don't know you are watching them. See a bit of a connection there?
Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken
Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's
real
I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand, I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can
Lyrics submitted by Im_so_damn_punk
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This is one of my favorite songs. https://fnfgo.io
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awww...I know what that feels like
"Am I not pretty enough Is my heart too broken Do I cry too much Am I too outspoken" Wow that's pretty emo if I do say so myself. Mike, I didn't think you had any emo in you! Actually I did.
actually, this is a kasey chambers song, they covered.. i didn't even know they sang this.. but oh well, good lyrics
ahh this song is definitely my song! Especially the first part. I luv MxPx.
when i was looking up lyrics by mxpx and i was looking down the list i coodn believe my eyes when it said am i not pretty enuf!!! jesus i cant believe that they wood cover such a fuking sucky ass song and especially by casey chambers!!!!! she is a bloody country and western singer!!!11
is it okay if i laugh histerically? mxpx doing a cover on a casey chambers song...not that i don't like casey chambers or mxpx...it just makes me laugh that they'd sing this song.
lol i agree totally with fakinglife! u rock!
i love this song. tear lol
he he he
can anyone confirm that MxPx covered this song?? I know One Dollar Shaort have done a cover of it but not MxPx!!