Pillowhead

Filtering through the lens of my own experiences... to me this song/ the speaker seems a bit hopeless. Like on one hand they're unhappy about not having a partner, but on the other hand they have no motivation to change that, and value some things that come with being single/alone - namely the lack of challenges. There's an apathy, a discontent, and a basking. They don't even try for more (the line about a friend they've grown used to). And the last lines are almost like a mocking of society's expectation that everyone should have a partner. This sounds exactly like a guy I fell for - it seemed like we were perfect for each other, but at the end of the day he just didn't try, and I still have no idea why.

i think this song means that he has nobody, and night after night the only thing he holds is his pillow. pretty sad, but good song

i think he's talking about his own thoughts, he has fallen in love with everything he wishes his life was. he dreams about these things at night and only when he is alone can really experience them, but it upsets him because none of it is real. i've had the same things happen to me in my life. its a problem with an overactive imagination. at least thats what it means to me.

I think the masturbation theory is fairly obvious. However, for myself, I prefer to take them to mean something a little different. I like to think he loves no one by choice, and is ashamed of the fact that he does not care.

That's how I am. It bothers me that nothing bothers me.

this song always reminds me of these pillows they used to sell like ten years ago. they were body pillows for kids, and they had yarn hair and faces and like arms and clothes painted on.. i cant find anything anywhere about them ever having existed, but i swear they did... this song just makes me think so much of them... great song, by the way

I think he is talking about having to touch himself because he has no girl and being ok with it because he doesn't have to deal with all the BS of having a girl.

for some reason I thought this was about his relationship with a girl who was addicted to heroin

You guys are obviously right. Ive heard theories however that some of the lyrics actually refer to masturbation. hes counting the pores accross his skin. the last line is that his prides undone (pop!) and there are people out there who hump their pillow to masturbate. Plus hes SO ashamed. one might be pissed they dont have a love in their life, but most people dont. hes ashamed cuz he spanks it! go failure.