So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
This is how it's hurting me again. This is what it feels like. It makes me wonder, makes me want to see from the outside. It makes me wonder, makes me want to know if there's any other way. The other side makes you wonder, makes you wonder why. It takes another look on the outside. You wonder if you wanted to see. Forever. Because I've tried to tell you, tell you why but I don't get any understanding from you. Makes you wonder why, makes you wonder why. The other side makes you wonder why. Take me to the other side, I want to know. You're stull around. I want to know what time it was, you slipped away. Otherside makes you wonder why. Any other way? The more you wander, the more it makes me think of where we used to be. And I say,"this is how it's turning me again, this is what it feels like." Far away, forever and every time we fall, we let it slip away and every time we knew, we let it slip away. This is how it's hurting me again, this is what it feels like.
Lyrics submitted by PLANES
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i can't believe no one commented on this song! there's so much going on in this song, and it's awesome. i love the part where he says "you wonder if you wanted to see...forever". it has to be one of the finest 11 and a half minutes in emo music! i personally think it's about a failed relationship and he's looking back on it, looking at it from the outside. regret can be a bitch :(