So Cruel

I absolutely agree with this. I also think "We're cut adrift, but still floating" is that they cannot be together because he is in a relationship with someone else, but he is still hanging on to her because he's addicted and it's almost fun to watch her want him after she let him go.

Head in heaven, fingers in the mire. He is with the girl he loved for so long so he's happy, but it is morally wrong to be with her.

I think the male subject was in love with this girl and she kept pushing him away then coming back, which is why she is so cruel. And finally he gets married and then crosses the line to be with her because she is like a drug he's addicted to no matter what. He likes the danger and is willing to risk everything for her. I am in this very situation. I met someone when we were just kids and he wanted to get married and I wanted to explore life and travel the world. So I did, but always came back to him because I loved him, I was just too young to get married. Finally when I was 28 and ready to settle down, he wouldn't answer my calls or emails or letters, then he got engaged to another woman. He called and asked to see me to explain why he made that decision. I begged and pleaded for him not to do it and promised I'd never leave his side again. He almost called off the wedding, but in the end he couldn't because he had been so hurt from me leaving over and over again. He called less than a year of being married to see me. He was tearful and remorseful and said he had made a huge mistake and still loved me. I was so emotionally drained that I moved away to get out of the situation, but it didn't end there because he couldn't let it, as hard as he tried. It was such a painful and regretful situation that I wrote a novel about it just to put into words how devastating it is to lose your first love. You really don't know what you have until it's gone and it doesn't make you an evil person to want it back once you've lost it. I can't stay away from him, and he said he is addicted to me. What are we supposed to do??? Sure you'd say he should leave his family or I should leave him alone, but believe me we have tried for the past 5 years and cannot let go. You finally get to a point where you're like "this is what we are going to be, it's better to have this than nothing, no matter how wrong it is."