So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
I hate life
It's a stupid board game
I hate just about
Everything
I wanna blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
I want a million dollars
I want fortune and fame
I wanna wash my drugs
Down with champagne
Until i blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
You know i can't explain
What i can't explain
Words can be so
Fucking lame
I wanna blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
I want a million dollars
I want fortune and fame
I want the whole world
To say "it's such a shame"
When i blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
It's a stupid board game
I hate just about
Everything
I wanna blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
I want a million dollars
I want fortune and fame
I wanna wash my drugs
Down with champagne
Until i blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
You know i can't explain
What i can't explain
Words can be so
Fucking lame
I wanna blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
doo - doodoo - doodoo - doo - doodoo
I want a million dollars
I want fortune and fame
I want the whole world
To say "it's such a shame"
When i blow out the candle
Blow out my brain
I'm secretly jealous of Kurt Cobain
And the coloured girls sing
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Brilliant, such a smart ass track with references to Lou Reed's "Walk on the Wild Side"