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I admit--I'm a secretive person. I bury unwanted emotions, I won't tell you the entire truth, and I certainly won't let you see into my mind or soul. But I have a reason for everything I do. In my opinion, the less you know, the better. I don't feel the need to offer an explination to anyone. I'm not sorry for anything I've done. I'm not in this to please anybody. I realize that my actions have gotten me here; I don't lay blame anywhere but upon myself. I'm not one to forgive others, and so I don't ask for forgiveness in return. I'm not a role model, and I don't claim to be. I've stabbed people, I've shot them, and fought them until our knuckles were bleeding, and we were coughing up blood on the pavement. I do what I have to do, if I want to protect those around me. If it was by my hand that made you upset, angry, or hurt--no apologies. I'm not sorry. But there is something that just might bring even the slightest comfort that you and I both know. I deserve to die. One day I will.

Woke up today about 7:30am. Everyone had abandoned me, and there was a note from Mom on the table. She doesn't tell me where anyone went or what time they'd be home. No, she tells me I can have the Doritos. Smh. Well, I have to go finish convincing my little brother that my shaving cream is wonderful, chocolatey goodness.

"She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart. while I'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar. And we don't know how we got into this mad situation. Only doing things out of frustration." "And we don't know how we got into this mess. This is God's test. Someone help us 'cuz we're doing our best." "Sit talking up all night. Saying things we haven't for a while. A while, yeah. We're smiling but we're close to tears." "But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts. When you pick yourself up, you get kicked to the dirt." --The Script, For The First Time

The boyfriend just left.

Reporter: So, Nick, do you agree that your marijuana smoking has gotten in the way of your fighting career? Nick: Acutally, on the contrary, my fighting career has gottin the way of my marijuana smoking. WAR DIAZ.

“If people can’t handle watching me or they can't handle the intensity of my life or they can’t handle me cussing saying fuck this and fuck, then you know, I think people really need to become a little more mature, kinda grow up a little bit…” --Nick Diaz.

The only person I can count on 100% of the time is me.

I can honestly say that I have no idea why anyone on Earth would want to help me? I'm a jackass.

Well, it seems that I'm at an all time low. What's the point in even trying anymore? Nobody listens to a thing I say. Hell, I don't even listen to myself half the time. In just a few short minutes, all of my fears have been confirmed. I am lost in life. This time, I don't think there's gonna be a turning point. It's over. I'm done--gone.