HHOOOOOOOOOORAAAAAAAAYYYY!!!! I finally hit the jackpot, here me drown in my fortune; AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! Finally i get sum signal in this rotten dump. Twice! I can rest now ive dun that. Phew! Not 2 worry, its aaaall good, I can reply now :D

Oh dear, my mobile has just copped half an hour of cussing. Great news: i cant reply to shit! It just wont work. I'll get all ur replies n msgs but i cant give back. Jesus, i only joined last week and already there's sumfin wrong! Just typical. This is all i can do right now so i'll either reply through my regular posts or find ur journal and plonk me there. I am so pissed off right now it hurts >:-( Btw, yes i got ur msg -- about the kfc post -- i just didnt want u to fink me rude so i made sure i go my ty out there, u no who u r :) Happy Days! xxx

'allo 'allo 'allo. Just bn playin my regular, Wheel Of Fortune, actually dun quite well lol. I luv all my Mii family on the Wii: Alki Olik, Ju C. Mei, Steyna Wake etc, brilliant lol. Listened to sum Erik Hassle as well, very talented. Bump In The Road is a gr8 make-u-feel-better track so if u feel like shit check it out :) Bn quite a gr8 day slouchin around in my snowglobe pjs watching the Disney channel LOL i luv Mickey Mouse Clubhouse! Am i sad? Maybe, i dunno. I also luv watchin Handy Manny and Special Agent Oso! I'd better stop b4 i realise wot i'm sayin n hav 2 shut my head in the fridge 4 a few days (!) I didnt come up wiv any ideas earlier. I just wasted 4 hours staring at my walls lol. I just need mor inspiration, is all. This weather has been wet, wet n mor wet. I can hardly reply or comment on anyfin. Luckily i got enuff signal on my mobile 2 babble my usual nonsense so i continue to heal the world wiv my scatterbrained love LOL Its, like, 4:43 right now. There mite b a chance i'll b off to the museum much ltr today, not 2moro lol so i'll let u no wot happens wiv that :) Enjoy ur night or day, whatever it is lol and stay positive people!!! Take care everyone xxx

Im sat here, at my keyboard, waiting. I might find something but only if i make sure i look. It cud b in a crease of my duvet cover, or a crack in the paint on the wonky ceiling. I just need to look harder. I visited my "thinking room" earlier n had this gr8 idea but as soon as i got my keyboard out it vanished in2 thin air lol. I know afta dinner my head will b in my CD cases examining Muse and Keane lyrics till i cant bare to ever say another word. MAYBE, sumfin will strike a chord, so to speak lol, maybe. :)

Btw, i 4got lol, mum had a good idea. Usually i get scared wen she says she has a gd idea but this wasnt scary. She's set up a charity box. What its for is for every pound she loses she'll put a pound in this box for whichever charity, and Bob's ur uncle, everyones happy. I was thinkin of doin one but to be honest i dont think i cud raise much as i dont hav too much to lose, BUT i hav said i need to lose just a few pounds as my new yrs resolution so i'm gonna challenge myself. I hope to at least lose 3 pounds by end of Feb. Ok, 3 pound isnt exactly goin to save life but at least i can contribute to her charity lol. I bet im the only person in the world that actually lost weight over xmas haha. But anyway, fingers crossed we raise a nice chunk for charity! x

Good morning/evening. What a crazy day! Ish, anyway lol. Listening to sum Adam Lambert. This one song on his For Your Entertainment, Broken Open, is a beaut :) I actually slept for about 9 hours. Its one of my one-offs though. To b honest i sumtimes feel better when i dont sleep. My game nights now consist of general knowledge quiz packs so maybe by thinking i'm just tiring myself out LOL. I had a funny dream though. I got a haircut and i found a multicoloured bra behind the bath. Straaaaaange(!) Ive bn thinking about tattoos lately, well, only coz mum wants another one. I cant have one yet coz im still 17 but as soon as July hits me wiv the big 1-8 i'll really b considering one but im not sure what to get. My original idea was getting a barcode at the back of my neck; bizarre, maybe, but i fink its groovy lol. Do they hurt? Mum says its like pins and needles and feels numb but shes a hard old bird. Anyway, if anyone feels like a conversation, let me know wot cool tattoos u hav :) Todays weather turned out really shitty. I love the rain, I'm probably the only Londoner that loves rain lol, but sometimes it can get a bit too much. I like goin for my walks in the evening but i daren't its REAL bad n its like it 4 the rest of the week. Boo. Omg, i just remembered. I cant go anywhere wivout gettin chatted up!!! I have no problems wiv gettin chatted up n stuff, but when its by 30/40-yr-olds?! Like today, 4 instance. I cant even go to my local Morrisons and feel like no one knows me. I first saw this guy end of December, he works there. I was just gettin sum hand soap when this African guy turns around n sees me, his eyes popped out of his head nearly n this weird grin came across his face as he asked me if i was ok. I just said 'yeah, and you?' coz, well, coz i say it too everyone lol. As i was goin back to my trolley he asked me again. Creep! A week ltr he started talking to mum and my brother, booing and hissing at his football team, Arsenal. Go scratch an itch, he fuckin supports the same club as me. Things really cant go from bad 2 worse. Today, well, yesterday-ish he sees mum and my bruv n says hello, tells them to stay where they r coz he wants to talk!, gives me a big wave and scurries off. Hell, didnt he gab. Asked me n Rich (bruv) how old we wer. Then he comes out n says 'Ha, i'm 41! You're so very beautiful'. Pevert. He asked if we lived round here blah blah blah, wants to come round. I think he's got a nerve. Then there was Charlie in September. He caught me outside Morrisons n we actually exchanged numbers, mum was occupied and i was caught out. Id never had this b4 so i just gave it 2 him. He foned me just as i walked in n said he'd take me out 4 coffee and that he was 30! He didnt look it. So that was cancelled. Then Andy in October. He cud hav bn a grandad. Then a hospital porter in December. Scary dude. But i get all the creeps. It doesnt help not lookin 17. a nurse asked mum which one of me n Rich wer her kids. Both she said. SHE SAID SHE THOUGHT I WAS HIS MUM!!!!!!!! How can i go out wiv sum1 my age when i look 20-sumfin? It doesnt help that i've bn through my fair share of shit but its not very nice. Especially wen there is a guy u want to talk to u n he doesnt :( Anyways, id love to talk mor but i think ive said enough 4 today lol Take care everyone xxx

To Rafi21, PLEASE READ BECAUSE I'M NOT RUDE: Thanx for the website I'll get onto it asap thanx again :) For sum reason i've tried replying but it wont work so i'm takin this opportunity in KFC -- no, i'm not eatin. Im on a diet innit lol -- to post my thank-you. So thanx lol I'll report back ltr, over n out xxx

Morning/evening, wherever u are. Its 4:45 here in London and i actually fink im tired. Im really unprepared n disorganised today n i dont know why. Maybe its coz im a confused turkey lol bn trying to write all day but i just instantly come to the conclusion that every idea is shit basically. This is really weird, it hasnt happened b4. If anyone's got some tips on how to get round it, pls feel free to share them, that'd b great :) Id really like to catch sum zzzs. I'll try n if i dont succeed i'll b back in a few hours lol take care everyone xxx

Oh Lord, i will not talk about my footy game. I refuse to speak of it. My mate's not even talkin to me and i know its bad if he doesnt txt me. My cousin'll probably kick me lol... Im really getting good at doin porridge. Its probably the only thing i can cook-ish. Who says it's only for breakfast? I have it for lunch and a midnight feast too !! It used to help me sleep b4 i stopped sleepin again. Only 3 1/2 hours this morning, got to sleep around 8 and up around half 11. I keep forgetting to take my vitamins. Just now i just rushed to take it n its now stuck in my throat. Ow. I just watched the repeat of Mondays ANTM cycle 15! I love it already. The only problem is wen i watch it is that i always look online to c who won. Straight afta the first episode. Just the usual crap at the mo. I'll probably end up posting in full before bed so you can read my crap talk in full then. Til then, cheerio xxx

I didnt start anything. I just ate my dinner and played games, Wheel Of Fortune and Trivial Pursuit. Duuuh. Not really sure wot i wanna say. I'd just rather talk shit and be done wiv it. Next month today it'll my first anniversary of clinically dying. Ish. Well i slipped into a coma and stopped breathing, what do u think? But thats for another day :) Finally undecorated today. The whole living room likes like its just squared itself lol. My footy team's playin today. And so early in the draw too! Btw, its the FA Cup draw. I wont say my team coz if u no them n hate them, like every1 one else in the UK, then you'll hate me too LOL Its nearly 7:45am here n i dont want to sleep. Crazy. Anyways, while i enjoy my daylight, have a safe night everyone xxx