I only wish you knew, The feelings I had weren't true, All this time you didn't have a clue,  it was what you done that I loved not you. Sorry i had to break,  It to you but so much is at stake, This love was just fake, My heart you could never break. Kiss her with the lips that touched mine, Fool yourself into thinking it's something divine, But when she stops trying, Don't come to me crying.

The clouds watch over From up above Filled with hate With no love I wait here Just for you But you don't know You don't have a clue The things I did for you You always came first You didn't care Made me feel cursed But still I stand Still I wait I'll stay here no matter What problems I create I made you a promise To stay by your side Even if you hurt me Even if you lied I'll never leave you You own my heart We'll remain as one Til death do us part...

I've  kept it inside for far too long I've decided tonights the night We're gonna do this thing  I know its wrong but it just feels right I dunno what I should do No idea who to trust But one thing I'm sure of I have to do this to your disgust I'll Feel the cut I'll Feel the sting I'll end my life End the pain i will one day bring If You want to master Life and death Spill someone elses blood And take their last breath It's not as easy  As it may seem It doesn't feel right More like a dream But dreams are nice So perhaps it's a nightmare That creeps on you as you sleep As a laugh and as a scare Take my heart that pumps my blood Take my lungs that takes in air It's not like you loved me Bet you don't even care I loved you babe And to be honest I still do There isn't anything I wouldn't  Say or do for you  If this is farewell Then get it over and done with It's easier to run away from problems Than it is to forgive    You can sit there With those problems in your head As I lie here covered in blood With my wrist cut hanging off my bed

What should I do?  What can I do? I really felt as if I loved you You lied you cheated Treated me as if I wasn't even there Another heart break But like you would care The first aid kit Needs to contain Bandages of hate  Plasters of blame Needles of hurt Scissors of pain Like operation To you this is just another game Another person Another cruel way But just remember I will have my revenge one day...

You know what,I give up. I give up with school my so called mates but mainly I give up with you. You're nothing but an attention seeking two faced hypocrite who needs to sort his life out. Seriously. You smoke weed,about 20 cigarettes a day (even though you're not an actual smoker or addict you're just a social smoker) and get drunk all the time. When you find out you're bf does it oh that's a whole different story is it? You do it in fact you're the one who introduced him to drugs and alcohol so why are you getting sooooo 'upset' when you find out he does it with his mates as a laugh? Is it coz you're not there to make sure he doesn't cheat on you even though you cheated on your last boyfriends with so many other boys it's unreal? You hypocrite I actually can't stand you no more and neither can anyone else by the sounds of things. You're going down the wrong path and you're dragging all your mates with you but I'm not gonna be one of them I'm no ones fool. You on the other hand are the meaning to the word gullible. That word was created because of you. Come on you twat how stupid can you get accepting a 'pill' and thinking it was E and pretending to have all the symptoms/effects of it when in actual fact it was a mint. A mint. We played you to see how much of an attention seeker you were and you proved it even after we told you it was a mint you even said "there was something in that mint or why would I feel sick?" fucktard, ecstasy makes you hyper as fuck, it's a party drug that makes things louder and brigther than it alreay is you were sitting there acting as if you were monging out then you have a cheek to tell me in class that your weed was laced with something like LSD or some shot like before...oh I could have punched you square in the nose picked up my chair and broke it off your back before walking out class with our fags in my hand. Since you're not a proper smoker you might aswell give me all your fags as I've ben smoking for over 4years. Yes I quit a few months ago but fuck it my anger has got so bad recently coz of your pathetic attention seeking hypocritical shit I think I need one now. As for you short arse,yes if you hugged me you could put your head between my breasts but that isn't an invitation for you to do so. I've warned you on several occassions to stop but you obviously don't understand that I will take my anger and frustration out on you. Wait. You probably do as you're the one who on a regular basis says I have anger issues,well you're smart aren't ya you cocky cunt. I could pick you up by your throat and throw you againt the glass door (have been tempted to aswell on many occassions) yet you don't learn. One last thing guys, when I say don't touch my hair or stop scratching me,I do mean it. Rule number one in my books: do not, I repeat, DO NOT touch my hair when it has been back combed or spiked if it is flat then fair doos if not TOUCH THE HAIR I WILL BITE A CHUNK OFF YOUR NECK! As for the scratching, no. I find it kinky and arousing so don't or I get very hyper and will end up hurting you without meaning to.trust me I'll hurt you bad by accident. Fun for me not for you. Simples.

Why Why can't you see? All this pain and suffering Happening around me Little kids run and cry Run to try and hide While we turn around Time we try to bide It's in front of us But they don't care Of all the torment they start And all the scare While they prepare for war And for murder too They forget about me And forget about you Together we should be Together we shall stand Side by side Hand in hand Let's fight our battle With our heart let them cry Leave them drown In their story and lie Is this worth living for? Hatred death or sorrow? Why don't we just give our life back The one we did once borrow...

I usualyy use this journel for poems and stuff but I need to get this off my chest before I throw a glass against the the wall...again. YOU ARE A FUCKING GIRL ABUSING TWO FACED SELF CENTERED ATTENTION SEEKING PRICK WHO NEEDS TO STOP ACTING LIKE HES MISTER BIG HARD MAN AND BE YOURSELF!!!!! FOR FUCK SAKE! Seriously dude,you're fuckin me off I nearly punched you in the face today outside class and at lunch for talking to me like I'm a first class cunt just coz these older more 'harder' people are around you doesn't mean you have any excuse to start acting like that but when it's just you and me you're some sort of softy that has emotions? Fuck off you prick I swear next time I get you on the ground I'm gonna get a permanent marker an write 'CUNT' on your forehead then let's see who has the last laugh then. As for you you small dick if you put your hands on me in inappropriate places, put your head against my chest or make any more sexual comments about me I will rip your bollocks off. You know I will. Either sort it out or you'll see what anger problems actually is you cunts.

Feeling the cold steel  Against my hand Make the deepest cut Throughout the land  I was the best Got the scars still Gonna get more And I always will Sit there and think Like you used to do Ask yourself this What did I do to you?  Except loved and cared  For you and all you did Then I ran  Then I hid I tried to stop my care and love Coz you stopped for me I can't and never will stop I hope You will one day see I loved you So sit there and slowly breathe As I forever and always  Go from this world,this life I shall forever leave... 

I always said I would Feel the cold blade against my skin For all the evil I done For all my sin I was here  With you While you watched my life From my skin drain through I leave this hell hole I leave this body Take only my soul You stole my mind You stole my heart My passion for you has forever Been torn apart Forever now I say good bye And I will leave you With your hate and your lie...

Clouds come And clouds go They cover the sun Just to let us know They're in charge Not us Stop trying Don't make a fuss Just accept it Like we should all do There are some things we can't change Including you What was once fine What was once good  Has vanished so Pull up your hood Reach in your pocket  And pull out your knife Tell another person give me your money Or lose your life...