l0vefool's Journal

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  • 0612

    by l0vefool on June 12, 2011
    What I learned is that teams win championships, not individuals, heart wins championships, not talent...I learned that belief and confidence is better than ego. The greatest failure is not when you get beaten by someone else, it's when you don't leave all of yourself on the court win or lose.
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  • 0610

    by l0vefool on June 11, 2011
    "I've become a real believer in not defining every single thing. Seems like everytime you think you've figured out what something is, it just becomes something else." It’s ironic how sometimes the thing you’re fighting is actually yourself. You're born, you die and you make a lot of mistakes in between. There are certain people who are not meant to fit in your life, no matter how much you want them to be. You know i used to spend every day thinking about you and dreaming about you, and everytime you walked by i lost myself, do you know what that feels like? And you couldnt possibly know what it feels like to have that person not have the same feelings back. Look, im sorry if you miss the way i looked at you, but i dont miss the way you never looked at me. You wanna know what the truth is? I still love you and I probably will love you for a very long time. But I can't just be your buddy, because as much as i enjoy the concept of being "just friends" in reality it's a bizarre form of torture and i'm just not willing to participate in it. so right now what i wanna do is just move on and get over you and the only way for me to do that is to not be around you anymore. How did I go from turning the corner of possibility to nothing at all? To love someone when there is no chance of that love ever thriving.. that is romance. Letting go isn't a one time thing, its something you do everyday, over and over again Because you're beautiful, and you don't know it. Because you're smart, and you don't believe it. You're the kind of girl that guys never get over. You're the kind of girl that other girls get compared to. You live in a world of black and white and I see pieces of gray.. that's the difference between you and me. that's what made me fall in love with you, and that's what is tearing us apart. Is it the possibility of losing him to somebody else that suddenly makes him so attractive? Anticipation is the purest form of pleasure. And the most reliable. And that while the things that actually happened to you would invariably disappoint you, the things that never happened to you would never dim, never fade. They'd always be engraved on your heart with sort of a sweet sadness to them. You know, it really hurts sometimes because i know he's out there falling in and out of love with these girls that aren't me. I know I've made a lot of stupid mistakes. But the worst one was thinking the person who hurt me the most, wouldn't hurt me again She's so beautiful that every time you look at her, your knees tremble, your heart melts and you know right then and there, without any reservation that there's order and meaning to the universe because life, much like a french movie, rarely makes any sense, but when its right, its right, and you dont question it, you dont think, you dont ponder, you just exist But that's just it, the butterflies never seem to accompany the right people. All the nice guys who are right for you, they never make your stomach go flip flop...
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  • 0608

    by l0vefool on June 08, 2011
    I’m not even upset, hurt or angry anymore. I’m just tired. I’m tired of putting in more effort than I receive. I’m tired of holding on for nothing. I’m tired of believing all the lies. I’m tired of being proven wrong every time. I’m tired of getting my hopes up and being dispappointed again.
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  • 0607

    by l0vefool on June 07, 2011
    and though the sun was shining and the sky a harsh blue, there seemed to be no colour in anything, except
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