Well first off, this is in no way 'talking shit' about weed, I'm just going to state the facts, if you're smoking marijuana (anything burning) it is known to be bad on the lungs and throat, but like the other comment, we don't know all the effects it has on everyone (our bodies are different), but I don't know many people who have a positive outcome on their lungs & throat when they smoke it, however if you're using a vaporizer, there's nothing wrong, it's just an 'awesome' feeling, but I just don't use it because if you get high off of it, you don't have total self control & I like being in complete control of my own decisions I make, & not have to blame dumb things I say or do on the weed.

I'm glad to say, I've stayed faithfull to what I told myself I will, and will not do. I'm just focusing of school, keeping myself in shape, and healthy..and of course music and poetry. and ohh the joy of inhaling the earthly surroundings outside and taking pictures of the beautiful sky and sun!.andd AHHHHHH. That thought..will never leave me.

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alright well, I'm not going to post the whole story again, so I'll just do a light skim of it, today is 1:25 pm on Friday, yesterday (Thursday) I went to the hospital because Wensday afternoon. I was watching a movie, it got boring so I shut it off, went down stairs to get something to drink, and I was just walking around up stairs then I think I hear a car pulling in the driveway, so I check to see if my step mom and dad were home from bringing my little sister home from preschool, then the next thing I know I'm waking up on the FLOOR wth???? I have NO memory on how I got there I do NOT know how much time went by. Then I get up and theres a severe pain in my head, so the first thing I think is great I slammed it on the floor. I get up and go into the bathroom to look in the mirror because my neck hurts and theres a scratch on it, The first thing that comes to mind is okay when I fell my neck must of scraped against something, At this point I'm freaking out because nothing like that has ever happened to me. besides like I'll be sitting down then I get up and I'll walk and I'll feel very light headed, dizzy, I can't see clearly, just a very bad, weird feeling, but yeah. As weird as this is the immediate thing I did after was post what happened on here so I did and I got about four answers on what it might be, or what I could do. and more then one was telling me to go to the emergency room, so as soon as my parents got home I told them and they said yeah we'll take you, but I let awhile pass before I let them take me just to think some stuff over and lay down, When I woke up from my nap my head was still hurting very bad. My parents immediatley asked me if I want them to take me and it was already late so I said 'umm no lets just go tomorrow' and so they listened. When I woke up in the afternoon ( I slept a lot) they were both at work so I called my mom and she said yeah, she'll come take me, so It's about 5:00 pm and she comes picks me up and takes me to the emergency room. were waiting and waiting for them to call me and they do, they do the basic crap weigh me, get my heigth take my blood pressure, then a urine samle ask me all those questions, like am I on medications, or am I allergic to anything. and were all done with that then they send me to my room and I'm laying on the bed then waiting a bit longer. A pe comes and gets my story on what happened and said shes going to run some tests to see if she cant determine what it could've been. she asked me a ton of questions. Then we did this one thing where she put jelly stickers on my wrists lower stomach middle stomach and upper chest and connected them with these wirres, idk what that test was, but it came out good nothing wrong, and awhile later I did this other test where they put some kind of sticker thingyy with a light at the top on my finger and that came out good nothing wrong, then these other tests where they drew a lot of my blood to go run a ton of tests on them ALL of them came back good NOTHING was wrong, and finally the LAST test they did on me was a cat scan for my head, so I did that, and while waiting anotherr hour for the results it was already very late. and ....the results for that was.......NOTHING I was normal for EVERYTHING and just omg. them tellling me that I was clear for all of it and they couldn't find anything wrong with me, well it wasn't 'relieving' actually, because the whole time I just had this gut feeling like I know something wasn't right. So after all the testing was done, the doctor said He'll send me to my real Doctor tomorrow for a followup and she's probably going to send me to a Neurologist where he'll give me even MORE tests more andvanced and everything, but that will be my choice if I want to go or not..and so It's Friday and I'm leaving to my Doctors in a little bit, where I will have to give her the answer yes or no.? It'll be a long drive to the Neurologists if I say yes and the testing could take days, they probably will keep me over night more then once and run a whole other shit load of tests. ... WELL everyone and anyone that decided to read this I really Honestly VERY MUCH appreciate it. and please give me your Idea on what I should do ...Thank You SO MUCH. -Becca Faith-

Hi, I'm a teenage girl. My mom and dad got Divorced about 9 years ago after having 5 kids togeather (all girls including me). My father was abusive to my mom I have terrible memories that a kid should of never had to go through I experienced some very sad things. after they got divorced My dad moved out of our house and lived with his mom, that of course lead to weekend visits. I Was not very close to my dad at all. More with my mom I loved my mom with all my heart. after a year or so passed by after the divorce she started dating. Then that lead to a boyfriend and didn't work out, but one after the other constant men in and out of the house. Every one which i despised and never grew a bit close to. I was VERY protective of my mother. one of her bf's when i was younger showed me his but when he was drunk. My mother dranked and smoked I'll get into the whole smoking nonsense when i start on what our whole 'religion' part of our life was like. Anyways one guy she met on an online dating site she was talking to for about a year and a half on the side of things. She never told me or any of my sisters, but then she mentioned it to us and told us how close they've grown and how much they like eachother. I didn't take her seriously untill awhile later she told me that 'Kevin' asked her to marry him. and that He had lived in VIRGINIA, wellllll we lived in CALIFORNIA. Thats pretty damn far apart. Then before i knew it. My dad knew everything and we were off to virginia me my mother and four other sisters. Me?...well at the tiem i was still young and didn't think SOO highly of it I knew I was gunna see my dad and other family again. In fact I was a bit excited. UNTIL we moved in with him and his 8 year old little son. One night Kevin came home drunk and was yelling at my mom about some stuff (I was watching from the stair way the whole time my sister vanessa was sleeping down in the living room while the rest of us upstairs sleeping excpet me. as the arrguing grew louder it grew into a shove from my mom to kevin then kevin throwing my mom against the wall I began to cry alll that woke up my sisters, but kevin stepped on VANESSA'S HEAD thats right. out comes my other sister with a baseball bat. anyways I ran into the kitchen I was about 11 didn't know what the hell to do. I grabbed the phone and dialed the number i was raised knowing '911'. tell them what had happened and that we need 'police mans over'. i was crying Kevin had leftt outside somewhere and my mom wasn't really hurt, but crying as well checking to see if vanessa was alright. they sent abulance and police cars right away with in minutes they arrived arrested kevin and checked vanessa thank god nothing was wrong with her. That was just the second domestic Violence scene that happened with my mom. shortly affter that seperation my mom and us still living in Virginia. While my dad visited every couple months or so. WELL she met another man named 'Adam' He had a 6 year old little son. YEAH we moved in with him and they ended up getting married within a year. Everyday i grew a bit more apart from my mom angryy that she made me had to go threw all that SHE was the one that made the idiotic choices to get a bf or get engaged or move to VIRGINIA get married for the second time. all of that was on my mom. Soon we were just enemies I disliked her alot. we got in one huge fight that resulted in me saying i no longer want to live with her along with the rest of my sisters. so the next month my dad came to visit he bought 5 MORE tickets to go back to California. When i got back to cali I started school again there. I knew I had gone through soooo much. YOU KNOW WHAT . I was a damn good kid. My Uncle is a pastor (christianity) I was born in it while both of my parents were hyprocrites at the time. I still followed everything i learned when i rarely went to church i loved it. I was excellent in school I was a fuking great kid, why would a kid like that deserve to have such a fuked up life like that?...My answer... I have no Idea. Well I didn't call my mom ever when i lived in cali, but at the bottom of my heart I missed her like crazy at times i felt like bursting into tears, just because of it. But...ONE NIGHT while me my older sister Celena dad And Stepmother Marisella were outside on the patio just talking about school and stuff My dad gets a phone call. I really dont remember who it was from but, they told him my mom tried committing suicide and there still not sure if she'll be okay. She took more then half of a bottle of sleeping pills Overdosed severly and swallowed them down with alchol. she was in the hospital. I Guess a week before that happend Adam and my mom got in a hugee arrgument about stuff Id remember what. but he started choking her and threatend her not to tell anyone. all she told was her sister and her sister told the police that arrested Adam. When my father explained all this to me. i felt my heart shrinking i was squeezing my breaths in and not letting them out I felt as if I was dieing of sadness. I bursted into tears and ran up the stairs into my room. while my stepmom was hugging my sister celena telling he rits alright my dad ran after me. i Was furious I was sad I was heartbroken I was overwhelmed of shock. I felt far from horrible. And that was the saddest time of my life. my dad got me to stop crying after a couple hours. I kept saying my moms dead. just the thought of that. Killed me, but in the morning he got a call saying shes in the hospital but she'll be alright. My dad told me and I felt soooooo relieved, but still was dieing to be with my mother. And hug her like I did before.

Damn my throat made a hole in my Veins. It use to be the rivers that would take us away. Now I'm supposed to say not that, but this. Somebodys suppose to tear this place apart. The colors in the Drak Died Painfully. Never means forever so in one!. DESPERATION. Now You will be excited to see me someday. Haunted Hearts we melt under the Numbers of light. If I ever catch the ones who hurt you... I hope that God looks away.

Is it just me being stubborn?. are you really FUCKING there!> 'she' seem soo convinced. I don't want to believe from her. Is it a want?. or a need?. either which. I'm asking. and wanting some proof.! how do I know which is truth! shall I try all? or not because bad might come from one?. huh!!!!!!

Has 'It' really changed? It seems to be going in some 'unviewable' pattern. I can't say I am confused or I am positive. Neither will end up 'fitting'. I (me) will not settle, will I ever? Is it just me, or someone else, something else... Horrifying! But I'm in 'LOVE' with 'It'. This, is it enough to keep me 'suited'. do I already have my answer? or shall I continue in my 'odd' search for the 'Definement'. Not selfish, but needy. not wanting, but most definitely settling.

Not the most known Not the most 'viewn' But myself, I do prefer them, why? Were and are the 'start'. 'Beautiful', even that can't break down their extrodinary definement. Not the last. Not the most. But the best, always will. We use these 'words' of enjoyment. Cute, fun, cuddly, warming, loveable, amazing. But not many. There viewing Is'nt full. Open each. And all. More and better will come from. 'Action'.

Good times are the ones when nothing bad's on your mind. When you wish It will never end. When Your having so much fun you forget that it's almost over. Good times also turn on you, In the sense that they can completely change. One minute your in 'Paradise' and the next you don't see how your life can possibly get any worse. I wonder If theirs a place of non stop everlasting 'good times'. A place where anything 'bad' is bullet proofed for it. People speak of that place, they give it the name 'Heaven'. They say, It's so perfect, The highest enjoyment our minds could come up with, 'Heaven' tops that thought by far. So you wonder. Where did all this 'Beauty' come from. It just can't be 'naturally' here, well If your low on keeping on, Turn to 'good' for yourself, (that won't 'End'.).....To be 'safe'. NO!..1-1 Is 'BOTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'????? ....I'm sure 0-0