I love Kele's voice :} It's so seductive. I did go to Michi's. It was great. My dad drove me there, following the directions I'd printed out for him from Google maps. We talked mostly. And we had chocolate pancakes. Then my mom called and said I could stay over if I wanted to and if they were okay with it. So I did. We went to sleep late and we were messing around in her room with her sister, Nikki. Michelle had a giant toilet paper roll that she used as a telephone. One of those paper cup ones. So she just put it to your ear and, on the other end, she said something. It wasn't a real toilet paper roll. Her mom had bought a big rug and it came rolled up on that. We wrote stuff on it. We also played stop. She won. I couldn't think of any of the bands or the movies. I went blank when I got to those boxes. Which is weird. We had empanadas for breakfast and then my parents picked me up. They didn't get lost. We went to a Colombian restaurant in Doral 'cause Michelle lives in Doral. Our GPS made us go in Doral Falls or something. Ruben said Juan lives there. Haha that was strange, me being so close to where he is everyday. I'm doing my Masonry homework. It's a double page. I'm doing little circles on both of the pages and making them into suns. On one of the pages, I'm doing an owl. The sun pattern will be behind the owl. "You should've asked me for it. How could I say no?"

I'm loving Bloc Party more and more. They're so amazing! I don't listen to Conor as much, which disappoints me. I might go to Michelle's, but my dad's feeling lazy and ungenerous. I've spent all my weekend AH lone. But whatever. I've drank plenty of water, 192 fl oz. Whoa! haha. Anyway, what I was here for. I'm doing some cool thing -or so it seems now, I know later I'll think, "wtf?"- in my sketchbook. I'm drawing half-cut lemons on the top and they're gonna be dripping and I'll be on the bottom of the page walking. Life's throwing lemons at me. Or lemonade, which would totally and completely ruin it. But, anyway. As I was drawing the lemons, I noticed something: they entirely looked like the bowls of the jellyfish I draw. And then I started thinking. I like to draw bowls. Which is weird, lol. I like to draw arcs. Don't ask why, I don't have the answer. And I was going to cut out a picture but I'm going to draw myself. TUH, tum, tah! I've never drawn myself before. People at school don't believe it when and if I tell the that. Maybe I should.

So I just hung up the phone from a fight with Carolina. The first one we've had in our two-year-long friendship. She wanted to go to some talent show they were having at her school. Then, last minute, she asked if I could drop us off. So I got suspicious. Well, you don't invite someone somewhere and then ask them if they can take you two there. It's just not right. It did seem strange to me that she really wanted me to go. I mean, realllly. So I interrogated her 'til I squeezed it out of her and there it was: I was her one and only ride and she needed me. So I ended it with, "Oh, really, that's great. I'm going to the mall." Haha, yeah, that's bad. jk. But, really. I've been finding myself being mearner and meaner. Getting annoyed for the tiniest things. I don't like a lot of people at school. I mean, a lot. Ariana, Alicia, Sarah, Marielle, Danzell, Marvin, Derron, Bradley, Akielah, Ashley, Jackie the Junior, Andres at Boxball, Jackie from Math -the one that sits next to me-, France or Whatever, Gizelle, Daria, Ampy, Olivia, Natalie, Elizabeth, that skank girl with frozen hair, more. They are either mean, stupid, or not funny. I mean not funny as in they try to be but they're not (Daria, Akeilah, Jackie, Denzell, more). Stupid, they act a way they're not or are clueless and try to be cute. (Sarah, Olivia, Marielle, Akeilah, Alicia, Derron). Or when they think they're really smart and are really not (Andres, Gizelle, Ashley, Ampy). Or when they're flirty and they end up making a fool of themselves (France, Marvin, Danzell, Bradley). And mean, they have an attitude. (Natalie, Jackie the Junior, Ashley, Ariana, Elizabeth). And two special notes: Ashley and skank girl with frozen hair. They try way too hard. I don't even know why I'm giving them so much importance. They just took my time. I don't know why this is. In the beginning of the year, it wasn't this way and I try to get along with everyone. Last year I tried to get along with anyone. Now, I don't care. And, if I don't like you, you'll figure it out. I know this is going to come back and haunt me. Whatever. Also, my mom is being unfair. She told me that we could go to the mall, so I called Carolina and cancelled. But then my mom got tired and suddenly didn't want to go to the mall. This coincidentially happened after my mom talked to dad and he told her he was on his way. Mom wanted to see if we could all do something together. Which contradicts her "tired" state. "If you were dead or still alive, I don't care & all the things you left behind, I don't care, I don't care." By the way, this has nothing to do with what I'm talking about. It's just the song I'm listening to, I like. I got mad because I cancelled to go to the mall and now she cancelled me. I know what you're thinking. But it's dfferent because Carolina was using me and that was a big part of it too. So, I'm home typing this on my Friday night. I feel like myself. I hope you understand for me. Today was also the Dance Mania at school. All the juniors danced around and things like that. It was a big thing, everyone dressed up and everything. I didn't watch it because I was in Almeroth's and he's serious about his stuff. Ha.

Today was early release but it didn't feel anything like it. At times, some things would remind me. For example, Carolyn and Camila not being at the metro station, the security guard asking if it was early release, the metro rail being early, the classes all mixed up, +. 2B. Cooling. Computer App. I got to get to know her & her class better. She throws a lot of information at you. 4B. Grafton. French I. We took a Marie Antoinette test and I got an A on it. We went over french expressions used in english. They're over a hundred, but I like learning about them. (Title reference). 6B. Navarro. World History. He lectured and then we watched a video on Italy. One of those Travel Channel ones but it was really old. Then we started out ch. 12 vocabulary about the Renaissance. Lunch. I felt a little sad because Andrea and Leah were clustering so I just went to the library and hung out with Ilana. She was doing her cut-out scraps homework with balloons and stuff. It looked great. It looked angry. But I really didn't know how it was going to close up in the sketchbook. Then Leah came and apologized but I didn't really mind in the first place. It was more of a *sigh* situation. And she stayed and had her lunch and Vicky was there too. I get the feeling Vicky doesn't like me. I try to be nice to her and stuff but I dunno. B8. Almeroth. Chemistry. Almeroth is a really good teacher and actor. He puts so much energy into his lectures. He bounces around the room and I regret saying that Martinez was my most dynamic teacher. We started out on a hot air balloon. We got into groups of five. Mine included Danny, Camila from school, Akielah, and Carmen. We drew on the tissue paper. Danny was being very childish, crossed his arms and everything. Um, Danny mysteriously started liking jellyfish. I. Love. Jellyfish. And, if I love jellyfish, don't come loving it too. There's something with me and wanting things for myself. Me being the only one. But, really. He can go on and get another favorite animal. I don't fucking think so.

The cookies are really popular and everyone wants some. I get, like, five boxes per day. That's quite good.

I love Bloc Party. I'm glad I went to school today, even though I wasn't planning to. Charles talked about extra interesting things. Freemasons and such. I think it's really interesting but I don't know what to think after that. I don't know where to start and the internet is filled with untrue things. I don't want to learn the wrong things. Anuez tried to talk to me about Masonry last year, and now that I sew things together, he might be one. I was thinking I could go tomorrow because it's early release and ask him a few questions. Then I read that Masons are evil and greedy. And I'm not sure about anything anymore! Maybe I can go to Charles' during lunch and ask him. He gave me an "A" on my cut-out scraps because he could tell I worked hard on it. But he said it looked "gross". Haha! I'm okay with it, though. I know it looked gross, too. Me and Evan are becoming really good friends and I like to hang with him. I hugged Kevin really hard today. He's being mean for some reason, I think it's because we barely talked anymore. He might be mad about me ditching them to be with William. But Raul's not mad. We talked a lot in PE and made jokes and they're hilarious, the jokes. "Learn how to take it!" "Andres looks like Napolion" "Andres looks like Al Capone!" "Code One is coming to flirt with you" "I like your shirt, but it'd look better on my floor." "Pssst!" and there's more. But I just feel so funny when I'm with him. Like, my funny switch turns on. Hehe. And I'm texting to Gaby right this moment. I got all my alg II answers right, so now I'm sure. Charles also spoke about our society and the way it's an "out" society. We go for things outside of us instead of looking in. We get sick and go to the hospital, instead of trying to resolve the problem from its roots. Anuez would always talk about this. And he said this like, "you're part of [the Universe], so you should know how it works." Anuez said that all the time. And to look in and balance everything out. Same concepts. It's a little weird.

I'm done with my algebra II homework but I'm unsure of the answers. I think I'm going to corroborate with Google or my textbook. Today was my first class with Cooling insteasd of Cabrera, my old photography teacher. Cooling's british, wears glasses, and I like her. I was tempted to draw her in cartoon form the whole class. I don't usually do cartoons but this was an exception, she was so perfect for it. I like her a lot, her personality, her sense of humor, etc. Almeroth wants me to go into honors Chem more than ever. He's urging me to. And I'm okay with that, up to a point. Perfume just keeps getting creepier and creepier. I try to Take it Easy, Love Nothing like I did with The Effects and other sick-feeling books but the suspense won't allow me to.

Charlie's shakin me and charlie's makin me smilehh

Chris G from New World is talking to me. I don't even know if he's from New World, but I like to think he is. Because it makes things so much easier. He's hinting about the movies again, "before he leaves". "Whoa, you look real pretty in that picture" Haha, I blushed. Hm. And giggled somewhat. But he's too old! We don't stand a chance with my parents and everything. He got a scholarship to some special college in Equador. Okay. Sometimes I think he's really desperate. Or that we're just friends. So, my parents don't trust me anymore. My mom somehow found out that I was planning my thang with Lawrence and now I can't stay home alone. Ridiculous! I had to go to Diana's house and play teacher with her daughter. Ugh. I don't like geometry.

Lawrence was going to pick me up today. I thought we had early release today. We didn't. :& And my mom didn't work today, so Lawrence couldn't pick me up and we couldn't hang. There wouldn't be enough time. Today was a bad day. Even though it was supposed to be good. I looked like I had died. I was so tired! And dirty. My hair looked like hay and I wouldn't have liked to be mine. It was also portfolio day, all the juniors and seniors got to show their art to colleges from all over. We ended up having History in the cafeteria. I started Perfume. It creeps me out a little. I'm listening to Cat Power because Charles recommended her and she's good. I like her voice a lot. I have to do Charles homework. I'm doing it with paperclips and money and heads. It's gonna be a lot of fun. Artist: Fred Tomaselli.