Courtneymasqurademassacre's Journal

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  • I need you

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    Dancing Upon the dance floor. for a whisper escapes my lips i could only cry out to you. letting me fall down with the fear knowing that youll be gone after tonight. ill set the flame for beauty does not exist as i look in the mirror youll put out the flames. i gaze across the room,just waiting for you. i watch us fall apart. Once again i cry out into the night Creating a Nightmare of my own Deep inside of us i know your listening for i have seen the unspoken I just keep on waiting for you to take my hand so we can dance this night away with our sorrows Our disirer is to be together for i have waited this is our finally Moment Casping for your love that we share i could only know Finally i have realized that i need you more than ever.
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  • Dont Leave me

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    Dont let me bring you down Dont speak a word darling .Im leaving tonight . Tonight Misery takes it toll let this go now just forget our memories. -How can i forget everything I could lay down tonight and Never forget your face that i have once knew. i see the face you try to hide i wont let you leave this time. When i hear you speak i can only reach out to find the past of agony and heartaches Dont look this way for i dont belong here not now as i can remember looking through the window and find shattered glass like life Forget the dance we shared once ago -How could i not forget . i try to hold on to you tight and not letting you go. fighting every tear you cant just leave me here for i long for your love i need you here .here is where you belong your heart shattered as i watch now Guilt now flows through your vains I Take the knife and end it well hopeless and so lost in this world i started the pain and now it will end for me darling try to understand. ill give you this rose and memorites will wilt. -Im striving to come closer ill keep holding on no matter what.no matter if your not here with me tonight screaming at the top of my lungs Hoping you will come back now We cant do this now . i dont want to leave you now but something is keeping us apart i turn around to see you laying there trying to get my attention but i just keep walking. (tonight im leaving you now and forever Running .Running back to your arms tonight. i cant keep telling you lies.) -Waitt .Please dont leave me here i tremble every second i see you ...... This is our last goodbye.
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  • Love

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    I strive for you love Only you can save me from this tonight holding onto me as im slipping away dont let me go Take ahold of my hand Feel my heart from your hands im reaching out to you I need Your Mercy *Just give This a chance * I know you will Breathe In Gently Your Inhaling my slightest fear Suffocating My Love for this heartache *for This Heartache * The Memories Steal Back our love Torn Up Lungs and the Oxygen slows down Choking Me With every Breathe Through my Body Your Love Will take this moment *My Love will take this moment with your fears Dont say that we wont let this last your Grip is Weakening of Hope Trying to grab you screaming with every Ounce of voice Your Hand is shaking in mine * My Pulse is Slowly weakening when i hear your voice Never To Forget this I Cry for you I Cry for your love Opening This Passion This feeling wont leave me alone lieing on the Ground screaming out to you everything sounds the same You say that its a beautiful tragedy Apology's fill within
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  • Love of Regrets

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    onight i cry from this heartache my Suffering Body It lies there Above me is your tears Sleeping through the night waking up in sunrise to find myself in your arms This can Become something that i need i need you for your love It comes so easy It leaves so fiercely that Leaves me lifeless For watching you walk out the door i whisper I Love you Roses Fill this room with Blood falling Lost in this battle how could i survive needing your touch its like medicine to heal the pain i can feel your eyes looking into mine as i awake Trying to get up shaking My Hands In Yours How Should i feel when you keep leaving me it leads to nothing good when you walk out the door i wouldnt be here lying on the ground but your Heartache keeps me here. This Feeling weakens my heart Looking through the Window i see my memorize gaze Then That night He Stole me waiting to break free to heal the voices i am His regrets
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  • Mess

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    Looking up into the sky I know your listening i see only lies that were told Please dont lie to me For Your all that i am Changing the colors of my eyes i slip into the place i was found before this i surrender everything at your will Coming down from the flames Death doesnt seem to keep us apart A lie (dont look into this mess)It devours me i cant keep going on (please try not to leave me)I lay down tonight (I am just keeping myself away)You only know You still stay trying to stay alive with you Look at this closely now The mess that spreads Screaming from everything trying to send for help trying to get up from the mess that devours me Only trying to get your attention singing to this Deadly Lullaby Darling keep holding onto me .It cant keep me down calling out your name i see you turn Walking up from the misery.
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  • Yours, mine, not his

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    ounting everyday I Cant come back to my feet you try to pull me up its just pulling me down further My body is Suffocating falling down to my knees it keeps me down and i need you until the very end Hold my hand in yours my moment will shine like no other this Situation has only killed me before it will pick up the pieces when he has realized my heart, he cant keep.You can keep it safe. we'll lay here and talk until we fall asleep today make it the best conversation that ive ever had -i will work on this soon-
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  • Blood spills

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    clenching every breathe my heart is Slowly beating blood spills tonight Silence fills the night Waking into the night Look for a way out Cutting skin deep I'm looking for Hope i don't remember who you are I'm willing to take a chance i don't know where i am remembering blood pouring out and loosing myself in a faithful misery holding out your hand saved me it took the tension trying to hold back but simply keep going my suffering body lingers there picking me up off from the ground trying to let every inch of my body move towards you it aches with the poison and over flowing blood placed with fear that is temporary i feel Secure when I'm with you Looking in my eyes we kiss so softly i lay down to find I'm not alone Terrified to find my hands are shaking white as snow falling from the sky weakening Memories of you come back to me i hold onto you so tightly Racing so fast yours against my heart beat You Found me in the Night
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  • Forgetful

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    Taken By Tomorrow Lifting me above this pain glass shattered and stricked into me now it sounded beautiful once you gave me a kiss to kill my pain Listen to this disaster that leaves me you gently give it your all Take these flowers and turn them into dreams Pull the sheets down a bath full of karocene Murder signs warn us as we slip into a deep relief showing no fear how harmful can this love become? We've Found this love that comes together so fiercely i don't know if i can handle it but i keep pushing forward for you trying to keep myself from crashing you took it away...
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  • Her Smile His Eyes

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    Running for the daylight She craves He Cant escape with out her Now that he can see She Will Promise He is waiting For her Her Smile Tells The story his eyes show the truth The Villain that they see How Could They how can they get away with this now That the Daylight is turned to fear Hope is reaching to Heights we cant reach without a direction He knows that He can Reach higher while she struggles with the Great heights She will not surrender to the secret that he holds onto He will speak out from the silence When he spreads the secrecy Her Smile Tells the story his eyes shows the Truth its time to turn around To look into her eyes See the disaster that will come before tomorrow time to rescue he is coming over with an illness,this is contagious when will this be over? She Tries to escape their nightmare Kerosene bathe ignites
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  • Lost Hopes.

    by Courtneymasqurademassacre on July 03, 2010
    dazzling in the moonlight sweet crys escapes my lips as were dressed up to go to a funeral that we are buried in the lies that theyve told us i can barley breathe everybody betrays me when i have become Hopeful Hope is taking its time im loosing every ounce of it turning my back to the dark roads you come with me that i trust you with my every single thought that runs through me we run in this deadly game now the murder signs become clear their bring me down as you try to bring me up ive lost the hope that one day i will find again. setting the moment i can feel your pulse rage in my hands.
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