Soo... I think it was Tuesday night when something happened, AJ held me, & my hand, & kissed me. After everyone got home he said it was a mistake. Without me knowing delaney told him to promise to stay away from me. Holy shit, once I found out I went nuts. I was like "oh HELL NO" but she made him take the promise back, then yesterday AJ and I were talking about it & he said he did want to kiss me. && now my brother is trying to be nice to me (he isn't really my brother, but if you saw us together you would think so) "I need to stay awake till 2" him: "you don't need any beauty sleep anyway" awh (:

Oh, well then :b even if I sound like Holden saying that, it's true. So yesterday I went to delaneys house & her friend was there, his name is Tyler. They like eachother so we were just chilling in her room. Then we went to the farm. It's a place where they just have concerts almost every night & it's a hangout. Tyler had no place to go, it's a long story but everyone in his family just left. So my mom let him stay with us. I shared my bed and we watched movies all night till five in the morning, then we dropped him off to the movies where he was meeting his friends. My mom gave him a pack of cigarettes & ten dollars. We fed him too. I'm not saying it was a good deed, but I was helping a friend. Shit, I wouldn't know what I would do or where I'd stay if everyone i loved just left. I am scared about his future though, worried. Leah.

I'm pretty sure I don't sound like him. Maybe sometimes, but I don't get how you can sound like him. Maybe we are twins haha (: So today I'm going back to delaneys house to spend the night. Now that I'm getting over, "spend the night" sounds childish & young. But I am anyway haha. When my mom picked me up yesterday she took me to get a pair of shoes. I got a pair of Minnetonka moccasins. They make me look more like a hipster than I really am. But I like them. Leah

I'm siting in my best friends living room while she && her ex are in her room. Hot , right ? (: very I got to talk to Matt haha , It's literally been forever. I don't really have much to say though, I'm trying to be more mature for my age. but hell, who wants to be around people who care too much? I don't want people thinking I'm too old or some shit. Leah

Yeah, the past few days were interesting. But I want to vent on something. Last night I went to the farm to watch a concert. A skylit drive was playing, but I've never heard of them. They are supposed to be famous though. So I was really bored & I decided to invite aj to it so we can hang out outside. Personally, I didn't like the music that was playing tonight. So when aj gets there a bunch of drama starts. Because Pablo's little sister said that aj punched her. We all knew it was complete bs, except for Marco. He wants to beat aj up, but Marco likes me. I guess lmao. So he is like "I'm kicking ajs ass" so I went infront of aj. Aj is like my best guy friend. If I had to get punched for him, I would. I mean, I'm not going to stand there & watch him fight. So then we resolved it & we all went home.

So today was a mixture of sickness/love/hate/sadness. Sickness- because I know I'm never going to talk to jake again. And the fact that he is in the army now. I didn't even get to say goodbye :( Love- I really like him, & he said he loves me. I could imagine my life with him. Hate- the fact that some things are going really shitty right now. Sadness- once again jake being gone. But mostly because Cody is idk flirty with other girls. The impression of flitty was kinda /: yes, flitty. And because I've been so hurt that if he hurt me I'd be like :o Like danny boles, just straight out :o Leah

So I'm seeing someone today. Not like secret-ish or anything but I really can't wait. My best friend is going to be mad though because we haven't seen eachother in like a week. She asked me if I wanted to hang out today & I said yes. But now I'm pretty upset. Talk about THAT later Leah

I met someone. And I want to keep him a secret. Tucked in my little wooden box wrapped in hearts. Look at how depressing & hopeless I am. I know how this will end, but I wish it wouldn't. It just seems too good. So today was a huge step, but now I don't have a phone to text with. And I went somewhere with a boy I hardly like, it was such a drag. But funny. Leah, more tomorrow, I should go to this boys house (:

So today I got fucked over. Like really bad, but the worst part is , is that I really didn't care at all. Maybe that's a good thing though. - Leah , I'll write when I cool down

I just got home from my trip. It was probably the worst week of my life & this is about the time when I need someone to talk to. I don't know how I feel but it's beyond help. Maybe something or someone will happen. Hopefully soon. I really have nothing to talk about actually, nothing has been going on besides my sucky week. Leah