Thank you Liana! Currently, I am learning some easy chord-songs like Meet You There by Augustana and Fair by Remy Zero. Just something simple, since I'm not up to the whole complexity right now. I've been a bit lazy. But I have taken a look at When You're Around by Motion City Soundtrack. The acoustic version still doesn't make sense, I can't stand bad tabbers on the internet. So yesterday morning, Journey tickets went on sale for September 21st at the Pensacola Civic Center, and I totally got some. Section 117, just to the left of the stage, awesome! I am soooo excited. Liana, her parents, Mr. Bill, my daddy and I are all going. I cannot wait! But then I found out that Augustana was going to be in Orange Beach August 7th and I almost cried. Heh. My mom won't let me do both. I'm sure they will be on tour again though. Summer is going pretty swell so far. I just got finished with hell week. Also means I finished the third week of Coach Rob's hell of a 5:30 AM workout. Halfway through! The soccer camp this past week was fun though, and I felt like I got better. I'm on the road to varsity this year!! :D I'm still pretty sore because he made us lift a lot more on Thursday so I increased my weights...so sore. Also today I got a new battery for my car so now I won't need to jump it every time I need to start it. While I'm in Orlando next week I am leaving it in the shop to get it painted yellow, to match my iPod. Ha, not really, but I am painting it yellow. Because it equals happy, and that is what I am shooting for here. Has anyone seen The Knowing? I just watched it tonight and I thought it was alright for the most part but the ending just totally ruined it. It's almost like the fourth Indiana Jones movie. The alien skulls and space ships at the end just ruined everything. Ruined the entire series basically, haha. I don't like this modernization thing going on. My little sister thinks I am mental for wanting to be so simple and rustic, shall I say, but hey, I like the simple things. I am jealous of my father's time when they did not have cell phones. They're the cause of a lot of my depression nowadays. Who cares. Ha, I haven't been to Dr. Haga in a long time, perhaps a month or something. I feel free. I'm done with being a phychologist patient. Basically, life is pretty great. Moonshadow by Cat Stevens just started playing on my iTunes and it reminds me of my grandma singing it. She is spanish and all she knows to sing is the "Moonshadow, moonshadow" part, hahaha. I miss her already. She's bailing me out of here next summer and she is getting me tickets to Madrid. Then from there we are going to the beach city of Gandia. I'm so excited! I love love love Spain. "And if I ever lose my eyes, I won't have to cry no more", man he is optimistic. "Try it!" as Liana says. Hehe. Too much quoting...

It's March already. I just read through all of these journal entries that I had posted last summer and one thought lingered in my mind: boy did I have it good. I supposed I hadn't written anything between now and last September because it's been so hard to, it would have been impossible to write anything without tears stinging my eyes. Yes, I'm talking about Eddie, and lately I've been thinking about him more than I should be. We broke up in early October, which is why I officially name October the most damned and depressing month of the year. Life has been shaky since then. He broke all his promises he had made to me, every single one of them, and all in one day, he just changed. He stopped wearing band t-shirts, he stopped caring about me, he even cut all his gorgeous hair off. I swear, everything about him is different, and I suppose I was the one to get everything dumped on. From October to December, things were nothing but in a downfall. They were the hardest three months of my life, and that's really saying something. I don't want to talk much about the breakup itself, but let's just say, it's as if it wasn't even him doing it. I recall the very moment of it happening in my mind right now and even now, I feel pained. Things got better in mid-December. I decided to have a little fun so I got to know Tyler Garlisi a little bit better. We ended up having a fun, enjoyable relationship, beginning with the first minute of 2009. However, over time things got a little undesirably hard to maintain. A relationship should be something that you enjoy, not something you struggle to keep going. So I broke up with him not too long ago actually, maybe two and a half weeks ago. That took me no time to get over, compared to Eddie. See, I still find myself thinking about him every single day. And lately, I've been staying up until two in the morning just writing songs and playing the guitar (I finally got my own guitar to play for Christmas). I want to call him and see how he's doing. I see him quite often, at school and church still. It kind of sucks. But every time I think about talking to him, I remind myself of the awful experiences he put me through in the fall, the worst season of the year, I have now denounced, and I remind myself of all the promises he broke. I cut myself once. I regretted it. Nobody is worth a human being's bloodshed. This all seems a little too emotional. I'll be honest, I've been having a great time lately. It's Spring Break, and Liana and Tyler (yes, my ex, we're friends still) and CJ and I are going up to Atlanta Friday to see A Day To Remember, The Devil Wears Prada, and Sky Eats Airplane. I'm so excited! And I get to see Brian Hodges from Covecrest, I really hope I do. Him and I have been texting lately. I'm in track right now and things have been going great, I'm pretty sure I will letter this year, unlike last year when I failed miserably with my terrible attitude, ha. The beach has also been nice, although I've got a sunburn currently. I'd say things have been going alright, now that I've completely disaffiliated myself from the male race and dating. It's great, I'm trying to keep it that way and stay out of "trouble" haha. This summer is going to be hard to top, to say the least.

It's been almost a month since I've been back from Spain, and I'm back to being exposed to the toxic air that inhabits the High School composed of not elements, but just feeling. You'll just know it's there. It's awful and you can just feel it descending on you each time the bell rings for the next class. The freshmen this year are very, very obnoxious, possibly because half of them are scene kids, the other half a combination of sluts, thugs, snobby cheerleaders. Amanda is the only decent one, just 'cause she's got the guts to puke her lunch out on the beach in front of everyone. With me! Hah! But nah, school is alright so far. Coach Noles isn't all that bad that he's cracked up to be. And I've decided to join Mu Alpha Theta (the math club). Conditioning, weightlifting, skills practice, and select team practice are what I do. Two-a-days, actually. But since last weekend I sprained my good left ankle doing a cartwheel, I've been out this week. Hopefully next week I will be able to function with the brace on or something. I'm afraid of getting fat because I'm not exercising! Anyways, I got a mental therapist person. My first session was the day after I got back from Spain and my parents drove me all the way to Gulf Breeze to see her. Her name is Doctor Haga, she's Korean, and I'd say she looks 50 years old but she was alive during the Korean War, making her at least 70. She's a nice lady and she doesn't make me feel dumb. The first day she said she had to make a diagnosis, so she diagnosed me with dystimic disorder, which is when you've got low self-esteem and you carry other people's burdens, and you sweat the small stuff. Mild symptoms of depression. It isn't that bad, it's just when I get a bad feeling, it gets bad. And it makes my mom cry, and it makes me cry, and it makes Eddie sad. So it's no good, but I suppose it's better than bipolar disorder. I think I've been doing better too 'cause she's teaching me some techniques. I mean, I could have figured them out but I have to have someone tell me what to do nowadays, or else no can do. I need my Faith back, too. It's been slipping. I wish I was back at Covecrest. That was the best six days of my life, I promise you. God is incredible. Other than that, nothing completely crazy has happened. Eddie and I are getting along great, and currently, he's at an August Burns Red show in Pensacola. I wasn't able to go, but I'm definitely going to see Akissforjersey again October 26th. The Devil Wears Prada comes the 14th of that month, but unfortunately that's the same night as soccer tryouts, and I just can't make it. Oh well, I saw them at Warped, good enough. I should go clean the cat litter. Or study elements for a Chemistry quiz on Tuesday, or Wednesday if we're doing a lab on Tuesday. Yay for burning down the school! The teacher is excellent, he's very funny and easygoing. And he has a shorter arm than the other, I think because he lacks an elbow or something, so I've heard. Well I think I'll go study for him.

I've spent twelve days here, and they've gone as fast as they've come. Part of me is really happy to be heading home tomorrow, part of me is cutting myself down for not enjoying this trip entirely like I should have. I've got reason to be upset though. I've missed my soccer team pictures, our soccer team vs. the boys team (lost 5-0 because I wasn't there hah), first day of school, tomorrow I will miss the second day of school, hardcore rain, etc. And of course I've missed my dad and my cat and my dog. And Eddie... which is really ridiculous because for the first time since I've met him, I've been upset with him. Like, I can't talk on the phone here because it costs my abuelita like, 3 euros a minute for international calls. So we decided on messages through Myspace. Most of the time I would type a novel for him (like I do on here haha) and he would reply with the same monotone message which would go something like this. "Well I'm glad you had fun :) And don't worry I'll get to see you soon. I really miss you. (insert one-sentence current event here). Well I love you Natalie :) -Eddie" Something along those lines, anyways. Right now my abuelita and uncle and mom and sister are watching Volver because it has Penelope Cruz in it and they're just trying to squeeze all the Spanish out of this trip. Hah. I'm in here listening to my Samsung. It would take me so long to write about everything that happened on this trip. But I've done a whole lot. Been to many many famous places. The sunsets here are incredible. My abuelita has an incredible view from the balcony, the view of the sun dropping behind La Sierra (this mountain range). Very nice. It was a great trip. Tomorrow at seven I'm getting up, checking in the airport at nine, leaving at eleven for another monotonous seven hours across the Atlantic Ocean to Atlanta. Spending a little over four hours at that gigantic airport and then flying to Pensacola, which thankfully only takes a little over an hour. So by the time I get home, it's gonna be like eight at night. Which is 3 in the morning here, and the jetlag is going to kill me. Then there's school the very next morning, and I've already missed the easiest two days of the year. Sucks! But I'm so excited to start school again. I've got a top locker and I suppose good classes. 3 with Karen. Yayyy. I suppose I've written enough. Now I guess I'll go band-hunting for recreation. I should be going to bed soon. I won't be getting more than six hours of sleep. And my mom isn't going to let me sleep on the plane so that way I can sleep all night when I get home. Wish me luck, whoever's reading this. Haha.

It's infested with megalomania. I'm sure every single country, city, town, and school suffers from it. Recently, I was listening to "Hey John, What's Your Name Again?" by The Devil Wears Prada, when I began to pay more attention to the lyrics, and I drew a conclusion from them, and to what other people had said. It's relation to a short story called "The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas" by Ursula K. Le Guin is also helpful. It seems as if the song was written according to what Le Guin had written. Let's begin with facing the facts: individualism is an increasingly dissolving value found, in this case, in teenagers and older college students. Even college graduates. We follow magazines such as Cosmopolitan and Seventeen as if they were our bibles. The majority of people do things because they've seen them before, glamourized by high-paid fashion models in ads. They strive for utopia in their society, which is clearly impossible, because there is no such thing as perfection, except in God. God did not create us to be exactly like the other, otherwise He would have created us all at once, and we would not have been given free will. He made us each separately, one at a time, so that we may each have our chance at impacting the world. And we know we can't hide from it- it's everywhere. It's plastered on your networking website. It's walking down your halls in between classes. It's entering your brain each time you flip the switch on your television remote (i.e. reality shows, rap music videos, advertisements). So why bother to turn your head the other way, dress the way you please, listen to the music you want to, engage in activities that interest YOU? The truth is, many of us are weak, crack under the pressure, and we put on a mask that hides who we truly are, who we could be. Then why don't we just all follow the cliche, put on that same mask that the rest of the how many million people in The United States are wearing, become clones of each other, and abuse our free will? Because we're afraid of what other people might think. I say take a chance. Take off your mask, show the world who you truly are, whether they be accepting or not. It's even difficult for some people to believe that while I was at Covecrest for a week, I actually found God's grace, and I basked in it's glory. I actually grew closer to Jesus Christ within a mere six days in the mountains of northeast Georgia. Is it really that hard to believe? Just because 99% of the rest of the world isn't as close to God as I am, it does not mean it cannot occur. It did. I'm not sorry that I'm not like the rest of you, and the only thing on my mind all day is the party tonight or if my hair is frizzing. Because it's not. Oh, and forgive me if you perceive this as me shunning you for not being as close to God as I am. Believe me, it is not the case. I am just using it as an example as one of the values there are in people today (religion). It doesn't matter to me if you go to church at all, or if you believe in God. It's just an example. Basically, I'm just making my statement about my perception of the world today. I believe that if we could just break apart from everyone else for a little while and find out who we really are, we could eliminate labels altogether, and obtain individuality in the majority of us. I did it. So can you. It isn't easy, but it is well worth it in the long run. No, I'm not trying to run some campaign to change the world. I'm just speaking for myself. This is what runs through my mind each day. If you've read this whole thing, I really thank you a lot. And Christian or not, God loves you for who you are. He created you to be an individual. You should never feel like you have to be as great as the person you see in the limelight. They're not great. To me, they're the lowest part of society. However, there are exceptions. But in general, everyone pretty much follows some sort of cliche. Just know it is not permanent.

So I totally did not write anything for like, several weeks, and in these several weeks, I've finished my six week training with Coach Rob (Praise God!) and I've gone to Covecrest. If I had to write everything about Covecrest, I'd be here all freakin' day. I'm debating over whether the week at my aunt's was better or the week at Covecrest was better. To sum it up in a sentence or two, I've never been so close to Jesus Christ in my entire life. The people you meet, and the activities you do, and the environment, they're all so great and unforgettable. I wish I could say it changed my life, but I can't, because reality is already setting in and I'm getting back to the old life here in this judgemental town of mine. Okay, three sentences. NO MORE. My mom has been noticing that I've been depressed for absolutely no reason in the world. I've got everything great going for me. Everything! And yet I still have those days where I just lock myself in the bathroom, and I see the razor out of the corner of my eye. I'm just being honest, the other day I really felt like just going for it. I never have before. But I was just so sad. And I pray a lot. It works for maybe a day or two, then it fades, and I'm back at the bottom of the pit. So I've decided to see a doctor about it. My dad called them today to set up an appointment. Maybe I'll get put on antidepressants or something. I hate doing this too, because I know it makes Eddie really sad. He's given me everything I could ask for. I hate making him sad. But hopefully this is the light at the end of the tunnel. Who knows. I want to get the appointment in before I go to Spain, which is Thursday, but I doubt it. I know I'm going to be depressed while I'm there, I just know I am. And being on the top floor at my grandmother's apartment is not helping at all. I'm going to go 2 weeks without seeing Eddie. Or talking to him on the phone. Ah. I haven't been there in 3 years so I'm pretty excited though. Miss my Abuelita and Abuelito and Tio Kike. Currently, I'm loading up on good songs to listen to on the airplane, airport, etc. I think I've got a plane from Pensacola to Atlanta, and I'm spending like six hours waiting for my plane to Madrid. Sucks, but I'll have music! I hope they have an internet cafe.

I just gave up on the dial-up at my aunt's house & I was busy doing all kinda fun stuff anyways. To sum up my trip: -Went mattress surfing with the four-wheeler with Sean, Tanner, Tyra, Sydney, Curtis, and my sister. -Went snorkeling + tubing in Rock Spring with Sean, Tanner, Lily, Ryelle, and my sister. -Went to Busch Gardens with my auntie & sister. I rode the Shiekra! It started pouring for about 3 hours so we just left & drove up to Homosassa Springs & stayed in an Econo Lodge. -Went to go swim with the manatees the next day at Homosassa Springs. The baby one followed me back to the boat, he's got the cutest little eyes. -Went to Warped Tour with my auntie & Stef. I saw Kristine and Jordan in the long line to get in. While I was watching Relient K, Eddie texted me and asked who I was watching and how close to the front I was. After they were over, I turned around and Eddie was there. He had driven 450 miles with his sister & her college friends to come down here to see me. Hah! It was the greatest surprise anyone's ever given me. The bands were amazing and I got a picture with Matthew Thiessen from Relient K because I love love love them. Before I left, Eddie asked me out, so now we've been official for four days. I thought it was the sweetest thing ever. Eddie and I would talk on the phone every night and I would have to venture outside and search for signal because it was awful out there. The mosquitos(oes) ate me up, but I didn't care, because talking to Eddie was the highlight of my day. I saw four shooting stars one night. I thought that was pretty special. He kept telling me he had a surprise for me but I supposed it would be when I got back. He told me at Warped Tour he couldn't go another day without seeing me, so he had to come. I'm telling you right now that was the best day of my life. Warped Tour + being with the most amazing guy in the world. WOW! I'm so blessed. Yesterday I went to his house & he showed me a few chords on the guitar. He's a very good teacher and once I get a guitar of my own, I'm going to practice everyday so hopefully one day I'll be as good as he is. Last night he told me something about the scent of my hair drives him crazy. Hahaha. I can't find one flaw with him. And he's also like my best friend. I can do anything with him and have fun, it's awesome. Well I suppose I'll go out and search for some good indie bands. I'm listening to The Format right now. They're pretty awesome; I just discovered them yesterday and I'm already in love with them. Hoorahhh.

My poor auntie & uncle can't get high speed internet out here in the middle of nowhere. But that's okay, because this internet is quicker than the one I have in my bedroom, which is pretty sad because the one I have in my bedroom is DSL. Anyways, obviously I have arrived at my aunt's, four hundred miles and two gas stations later. The drive over here wasn't bad at all, in fact I kind of liked it because my father & I were rocking out to this awesome CD I made him the night before. He tries to act cool and tell me that 3 Doors Down and Foo Fighters are the coolest bands around. So I just made him a CD. But it was really fun, driving on the Interstate with the music blasting. I even put some Dragonforce on there. And he liked it! Hahaha. Now if he only liked Eddie's band... Speaking of Eddie, he did show up last night at around 9:30. I was so happy to see him and get to say goodbye before I left the next day. We just sat in my room and talked, but it was awesome. And he reassured me that I was going to have a lot of fun while I'm down here and not to worry, because I'd see him in a week and a day or two. Judging by the time he was gone for four days, this won't go over too well, but it's okay. Then he had to leave so I walked out to his car with him and he pointed out the stars, they were very prominent last night. There was dew on the hood of his car. He wrote "Natalie is amazing" with a heart. It made me happy. Then he hugged me for an eternity and a half, followed by a deep kiss or two. I tried to make them last as long as possible, but you never know who may be snooping through the window in the front.... I really miss him right now. Oh, and I showed my aunt a picture of him and she thinks he's cute. "Why isn't he your boyfriend yet??" she asks. Because we're taking it extra slow to "build a strong foundation" (Eddie's words). So my aunt's got a whole bunch of stuff planned for my sister and I during the week we are staying here. We are going to Busch Gardens, Sea World, we're swimming with manatees, and of course, Warped Tour!! I'm very very very excited. I'll be sure to get Eddie some cute souvenir, just like he did for me when he went down to Tampa. A cute little stuffed gorilla from Busch Gardens. I brought it with me on this trip. :) I took a few pictures of the sunset today, because I always ask Eddie if he'd seen the sunset. I know he wouldn't be able to see it here. So I took a really great picture with the horses and the dogs. But this slow dial-up prevents me from uploading them to photobucket. Which really sucks. I think I'll call him in about an hour and a half. It's going to be hard talking to him here though, it's either going to be too quiet or too loud. Too loud works better, I hate sneaking on the phone at night. But I do it every night. Hahaha. Okay I'll stop talking about Eddie and head over to the kitchen. My aunt's talking my dad's ear off about the last time we visited, which was Spring Break 2007. Best Spring Break ever.

1. Name a quote from the song you're listening to: "Holy diver, you're the star of the masquerade." 2. When were you born? October 18th. 3. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? Yes. 4. What are you seriously wearing? Say Anything t-shirt & pj shorts. 5. When is the last time you saw the person you like/liked? A few hours ago. 6. Ever kissed anyone on your top friends? Yes. 7. Describe the last time you were injured? Well today I rolled my ankle playing soccer. 8. Do you get the full 8 hours of sleep a night? I suppose. 9. Think of all your exes. Would you take any of them back? No. 10. On your "lazy days" what would you be doing? This. 11. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with? Eddie. 12. Most recent movie you have watched in theatres? Uhh I'm pretty sure it was Don't Mess With The Zohan. 13. Who was the last person to slap your butt? Dunno. 14. Favorite toy as a child? Rocky the penguin. 15. Do you own a pair of Converse? Two. 17. Do you eat cookie dough? Yes. 18. Have you ever kicked a vending machine? Yes. 19. When's the last time you had gummy bears? A while ago. 20. What color are your bedsheets? I have no idea. 21. Do people consider you smart? I hope so. 22. What temperature is it outside right now? 70-something. 23. Have you ever stayed online for a very long time waiting for someone? Yes, silly mistake. 24. Could you live without a computer? Yes. 25. Do you have an iPod? No, I have a Samsung. 26. What movie do you know every line to? Lion King. 27. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? I can't remember. 28. Last person you hugged? Eddie. 29. Had a long distance relationship? No. 30. Who was the last person you held hands with? Eddie. 31. At what age did you start noticing the opposite gender? I can't remember. 32. Do you know someone who likes you? Yes. 33. How do you handle a rainy day? I stay indoors, sometimes I watch the lightning if there is any. 34. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? I suppose. 35. Are you cold? Nauh. 36. Do you have a lot to learn? I suppose. 37. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? I think so. 39. Are you a patient person? Not really. 40. Are you an impatient person? Deduce the answer from the above question. 41. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Disney. 42. When do you feel your life energy is the strongest? When I'm filled with the Holy Spirit. 43. Are you with someone right now? Nope. 44. Next time you'll take a shower? Tomorrow. 45. Is anyone on your bad side now? I don't think so. 46. What jewelry are you wearing? My Confirmation ring. 47. Who's your favorite singers/band? I really like Fall Out Boy & Akissforjersey & Bright Eyes. 48. Next kiss? Tonight, whenever Eddie gets here to say goodbye. 49. Do you watch Grey's Anatomy? No. 50. How do people spell your name? Natalie, or Natlie. Stewpid. 51. Would you wear your boyfriends/girlfriends clothes? Maybe. 52. Hows your life going as of right now? Pretty good. 53. Do you think you're ugly? No. 54. How's your heart? It's been better. 55. Last line of a song you heard? It's metal, I have no idea what they're saying. 56. What are you doing tomorrow? Road trip. 57.Can you honestly say your happy with who you are? Yes. 58. Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? I'd prefer neither of them do. 60. Will you keep your last name when you get married? Nauh. 61. Would you rather be drunk or high? Neither. 62. When is the last time you left your house? Earlier today. 63. Look through the 2 nearest windows what do you see? My blinds are down. 64. Who is someone you have drifted from? Andi, Jamie. 65. Whose the last person you felt stalked by? Landon. 66. Do you like anyone? Yes. 67. Do they know? Yes. 69. Do you have a dishwasher? Yes. 70. Have you ever been knocked unconscious? No. 71. Would you survive in prison? Maybe. 72. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? Yes absolutely. 73. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? Yes. 74. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000? Absolutely not. 75. Who is number 1 on your top friends? Karen. 76. What can you not wait to do? See Eddie. Haha. 77. Do you know anyone with the same name as you? Yes. 78. How many pairs of shoes do you own? A few. 79. Whats the last thing you ate & why? Subway, because I was hungry. 80. Are you a friendly person? Most of the time. 82. Have you kissed anyone with a name that starts with an "A"? Yes. 83. What's the worst thing someone can do to you? Lie to me. 84. What's your middle name? Danielle. 85. Where is your cell phone? On the desk. 86. How are you sitting? Like a normal person. 87. What brand is your shirt right now? I have no idea. 88. Ever been to Georgia? Yes. 89. Do you flirt a lot? Not as much as I used to. 90. What do you call your parents? Mami & Daddy. 91. What irritates you most on the internet? When everyone copies everyone & everything is so cliche & nobody has their own independence. 93. What are your plans for the future? I have no idea. College. 94. Do you fall for boys/girls very easy? Not anymore. 95. Do you think your a good girlfriend/boyfriend? I would make a good girlfriend. 96. What are you listening too right now? "Jasey Rae" by All Time Low.

I finally got to hang out with Liana today, and I haven't hung out with her since before school let out, which is really sad. We had a lot to catch up on and we spent the entire 3 and a half hours she was over either talking about our men or cooking Ramen noodles. Hers were a disaster. Nonetheless, it was great to be able to hang out with her before I left for Orlando. Afterwards, I went to the soccer fields to play a little scrimmage with the boys. Yes, I play with the boys because they really teach me a lot. I can handle them too. I scored about eight goals for my team, each of which I received surprised praise from my fellow teammates. Andres & his 3 brothers were there. They're latino, 'nuff said. Eddie and Nolan were also there. It was a lot of fun. Shirts vs. skins! I played shirts...duh. Then my mother called and asked if Eddie could drive me home. which was a great opportunity. This is the first time she's ever let me drive with him! It was awesome. Like during the ride over to my house he played this really loud music, and just like in The Perks of Being A Wallflower, we felt infinite. We sang along, yet we could not hear our own voices over the voices from the Bose speakers. My favorite one that we sung together was "Last Train Home" by Lostprophets. Him being a drummer, was tapping on the steering wheel, screaming the lyrics with me. It was incredible. It was liberating. It was pure happiness. My parents thanked him for getting me home on time & in one piece. Now he's supposed to be stopping by to say a formal goodbye. I'm leaving for my aunt's house near Orlando for a week. A week is quite a while when you can't see a certain someone. So I'm sitting here, just waiting. I wouldn't mind if he didn't come, 'cause he's done enough already. He's really something.