saturday 15th august 09 havent written in a while. saw the ugly truth on tuesday, really enjoyed it :). i applied for a job in argos and handed my cv into o'carrolls. i really need a job! dyed pierces hair yesterday. he came down at 9 in the morning. so did cummings and he stayed til like 1am :). tasha gave me her white nps today. it's her 18th tomorrow so we went to sheas and had a drink. cummings ended up being sick so he and i left early. we reckon it was food poisoning from his chinese last night. he told me tonight that he thinks im so nice and amazing and hes really glad hes with me. i think im really starting to fall for him... thursday 20th august 09 went for a pre-results drink last night in michaels house with jess and hackett. had an absolutely brilliant night. had to get up early this mornin to go get my AS results. got 2c's and a b :) soo happy. i thought i failed everything! friday 21st august 09 went to cummings' house today. munched out and watched loads of tv. we had a really nice chat. he told me that hes falling for me and we spoke about saying "those 3 words" and he said it wont be long until hes ready to say it to me and told me that when im ready, i should just say it to him. it made me feel a lot more comfortable and connected with him. he was bein really cute. he said "know what i cant wait to do someday? wake up next to you" :) he also told me that he'd do anything for me :) saturday 22nd august 09 went to town today. cummings bought a pizza, chicken curry with rice, 2 3litre bottles of lemonade all for 4 quid in iceland! we came up to my house and munched out and watched x factor. cummings and eva got on very well, playing and laughing. eva's never been like that with any of my boyfriends. tonight was a big night. was the first time we said "i love you". im really, really, unbelievably happy :) monday 24th august 09 had a good day today. spent the evening with cummings. i really love him. and i really miss him already! and im not gonna see him tomorrow. i need to ring school tomorrow morning to make sure i got back in. jess told me today that cameron asked her out this morning. im so happy for her :) tuesday 25th august 09 didnt do very much today. missed cummings loads :(. jess told me that shes gonna break up with cameron even though they only started goin out yesterday. its because they were talkin and they couldnt come up with a day that they were both free cus of jess's work and cameron's training, bless her. i found a rowing machine in the argos catalogue for 50 quid so thats pretty good. im gonna buy that with my ema bonus and i know ill actually use it cus im payin for it with my own money. ive also decided that im goin to definitely get my provisional licence and driving lessons for my birthday and im gonna get a new tv for my room for xmas. friday 28th august 09 had my first day back to school today. so boring. we just had to pick our a2s and apply to ucas. went into town with michael and got school shoes then went to michaels and had kfc and just had a quiet night in. i got quite the compliments about my blowjob expertise ;) i missed him as soon as i left his house. this is love :) tuesday 1st september 09 had to go to school today to get my timetable and i didnt even bloody get it. rage. michael came up after tech and we just sat in mine for a bit. i really worry that hes gonna get bored with me. its been 2 months today. he said to me that theyve been amazing and theres loads more to come :) saturday 5th september 09 went into town today and managed to get an application form for the disney store. i then went to michaels house. had a brilliant night. hes comin to my formal now instead of pierce. i really dont like leaving michael :( i just wanna be with him all the time :( i really love him wednesday 9th sept 09 had to get my first cervical cancer injection today. at the time it wasnt as bad as i thought itd be. went to michaels house after and he and i fell asleep in his bed. when i woke up i couldnt feel my arm and now its really heavy and i still cant feel it. its really sore :( i dunno how im gonna sleep. derren brown predicted tonights lottery numbers and got them all right! he is one good magician. theres a show on on friday night which shows you how he did it. ill have to watch it friday 11th sept 09 jess bought her formal dress today. its so nice. cost her £175. i found one in debenhams for £115 but i didnt have money for it today so im gonna get it tomorrow. its beautiful. instore rang me. i have a job interview tomorrow. saturday 12th sept 09 had my job interview. the guy was so dead on. my induction is tomorrow. bought my formal dress today. i love it :) stayin in jess's tonight. we made dani's birthday cake. took us 3 hours and it still looks like shit lol sunday 13th sept 09 induction went well. steven frizzell from primary school was there for his too and i made friends with the other girl, aislinn. she knows tasha and leigh from school. when i got back from jess's my mum went through my bag and stole my £40 that was in it. the whole nights been terrible. she started drinking and slabberin and she scrabbed me and now theres a big slice along my neck. i hate her. i really want her to leave. i cant stand being in the same house as her. michael told me that i could take things to his house and stay with him for a while but i dont wanna leave my dad. monday 13th sept 09 school was so shit today. it dragged in. went into town to see if i could open a bank account without having photographic id and they told me that i just needed my birth certificate and my dads passport. now the issue is finding my birth certificate! charlie rang me earlier saying that a little birdie told him that michaels been cheatin on me. which i know is bullshit cus i spend all my time with him and am textin him 24/7. he rang sp to ask if he knew anythin but he reckons hes just bein a dick cus charlie rang sp slabberin. michael told me today that he thinks im perfect for him and he wants to marry me eventually :) wednesday 16th sept 09 work tomorrow. bit nervous. i dont have a bank account. i hope i can put my wages into my das account. adele and dani had a fight and i found out that francesca hasnt been in school cus she has a blood clot in her brain... saturday 19th sept 09 i had work today. 9-30. by the time i got out my feet were killing me and my lower back was so sore. im wrkin wed-fri 5-9.30 and sat 10-6.30. i was meanta go to annettes for karls bday then stay in michaels but i told michael that i was too tired so he and i came up to mine for a bit instead. luckily i didnt agree to stay in michaels cuz mark rang me askin me to work tomorrow 12.30-6.30. i was ragin but i couldnt really say no like... monday 28th sept 09 ive barely been able to write here cus ive been so busy wth school and work that i hardly get any time to myself. i got my new glasses today, pink leopard print. i love them :) theyre smaller than my other ones and suit me better :) i feel really bad cus when michael comes to my house now i always seem to fall asleep on him cus im exhausted from my busy schedule. he says he doesnt mind but hes got to! sunday 4th oct 09 i havent been doin very much now that im workin. i just sat in last night and watched a few movies with michael. the formal tickets are being sold this week :) thursday 8th oct 09 went to lenadoon today. was really good, surprisingly. got invited to crickys 18th tomorrow, really lookin forward to it :) wednesday 14th oct 09 broke up with michael today. we both agreed to it. and we're both on really good terms and like best friends. i think im gonna bring paddy to the formal now lol. oisin asked me to take him haha. im gona miss michael, even though i wanted it to end he told me he cried too. saturday 17th oct 09 been texted michael every day. i like how im still close to him, but i feel bad cus hes been drinkin every night since we broke up. gona see him in lenadoon on monday tho. i have a job interview for birthdays on thursday :D

tuesday 28th july 09 went to see the proposal today. was hilarious. love ryan reynolds. really excited for naomi's birthday on friday! its gay pride on saturday too!! :) saturday 1st august 09 naomi's party was sooo good!! dean and cummings got on really well. john, lynsey, sean-paul, cummings and i ended up staying in sean-paul's house. went to gay pride today. the rain was a bitve a downer though. and there weren't as many floats this year as there are every other year. cummings wore my tshirt that says "i need a kiss now" on it. he looked like a gay holiday rep. haha! tuesday 4th august 09 cummings and i have been going out a month today :) i met him after tech then we went to his house, watched dvds and got an indian takeaway. today went so fast :( but i get to see him tomorrow. i really like him...but im just a bit worried that i like him more than he likes me. even though i know he really likes me. oh well, im having a wee sleepover with my sister in her room tonight. its good to spend time with her. pierce had a heart attack today. scary stuff. thursday 6th august 09 marcus, brendan, monk, cummings and i went to helens bay beach and bangor today. was really good to be away from the park. i saw colette, tommy and sophie in bangor. i couldnt believe it. they probably followed me down! found out that the top of one of pierces lungs collapsed the other day. if its not reinflated by tomorrow hes to go in for surgery. fingers crossed hes okay. friday 7th august 09 cummings and i went shopping today cuz he got paid £120. he bought 2 pairs of jeans, a belt/bottle opener, 2 tshirts and a shirt. lovely lovely :) after we went home and got changed we went to his mate gavins house for a wee drink. so boring. the wee lad never spoke! we pranked fearghal. that was pretty funny. and cummings got a taco chip from browns (susies) was great! because it was so shit we left early and went to my house. we had a really deep conversation which lasted 3 hours. was really good. i feel so close to cummings now :) pierces hospital appointment went well. was all inflated :) sunday 9th august 09 went into town yesterday and got loafers and new jeans :D stayed in karls last night. there was a party on. was quite good :) wrecked now though! john and clodaghs sister siobhan are going out. found that quite strange!

monday 6th july 09 today was quite boring. didnt do much. last night pierce asked annette out and she said yes. how cute. also, sp got the shit beat outta him by a guy with a hurley stick! cummings is comin to my house tomorrow :) tuesday 7th july 09 cummings came down today. we watched marci x then waiting then a few friends eps. we then went to lenadoon. pierce pulled me and asked if anything had happened and i told him no. then pierce went on a walk with cummings then cummings asked me to speak to him and then he asked me out :) wednesday 8th july 09 didnt do much today. had to leave my dad's laptop to johns to fix then i dyed tashas hair. she and paddy broke up so i told her i'd go to her caravan for a few days with her. thursday 9th july 09 had to go fundraising today. i think we made a good load of money like. the taxi man on the way there said that i look like someone who goes to g8 protests wrecking stuff, burns buses and stabs policemen lmao! i then met cummings, tasha and his mates and had a drink then went to a really shit party. wednesday 22nd july. havent written in a while. things are going well with cummings :) im really enjoying being with him. annette and jess are going through a little thing atm. pierce doesnt like jess and now we're all gettin the impression that annette isnt comin to see jess cus of pierce which isnt right. you dont choose your bf over your mates.

tuesday 30th june 09 got up and went into town with hackett cus he'd an opticians appointment and we wanted to buy hair dye. i dyed my hair turquoise, ash did hers pink and purple and the silver didnt work on hacketts hair so its blonde. it really suits him though. i need money for drink on friday fs. i've only £4.16 and i need £7 saturday 4th july 09 went to that gig last night and me, cummings, karl and connor stayed in sp's. cummings got kicked out of the gig for pissing on connor and then connor wasn't allowed back in so we all went to the park. the whole night and this morning cummings was holding my hand but nothing else happened :( just gotta move slowly, i guess. sp lit a fire and tried to cook sausages. was so funny. karl scared the shit outta me. he got so drunk he actually went blind and couldnt breathe. i had to stand outside cus i was shittin it!

sunday 28th june 09 havent spoken to my mum all day =) went to lenadoon for a bit today. was so shit. my da's givin me £40 for newcastle tomorrow. so excited! monday 29th june 09 went to newcastle today. had to get up really early and only got 2 hours sleep but it was worth it. was amazing. we went to the beach, built sandcastles, buried brendan in the sand, went to the amusements, everything! brendan won a sonic teddy with a tenner on it. he was soo happy! went to lenadoon after. hackett got his hair cut. its really short. i didnt think he'd suit it but its really nice. mums drinking again. she came into my room there crying and she said she was sorry for the other night and kissed my cheek. i told her that i wasnt gonna speak to her til she stopped drinking and she told me that she doesnt feel well and thats why she drinks. if you dont feel well, why drink yourself into oblivion? get help. i told her i didnt wanna talk to her and she slurred "fuck ye then!" and slammed the door.

saturday 27th june 09 went into town. was so boring. then went to lenadoon which, again, was boring. monk, hackett and marcus sandwiched me inbetween them all and wouldn't let me out so i bit hackett's neck and now it looks like a hickey haha. got in and my mum was drinking. i hate her behavious when shes drinking so i decided to tell her how i feel. she didn't take it too well. its now 2:41am and shes in the living room blasting music, drinking more and slabbering about me and my dad to herself. talking to herself! she sounds like an old hag. putting on this stupid voice. theres seriously something wrong with her. she needs to stop drinking. she owes me £500 too. but its her. all she thinks about is money. theres no way im getting it back. its now 3:24am and i can hear her banging something and her heavy breathing or crying or something. im actually terrified to go to sleep in case she tries to suffocate me or....stab me or something. that cant be right.

tuesday 23rd june 09 went to lenadoon today for dee's birthday. was great fun. dean ended up making that wee melter rachel drink his piss cus she thought it was cider lol. sean-paul thought he'd be funny and save cummings' number in my phone then he rang him and told him to give me a text later. we've been texting all night =D friday 26th june 09 on wednesday, myself, brendan, dee, fearghal, marcus, annette, naomi and hackett when to musgrave park. was brilliant. it was really good being away from lenadoon. michael jackson died yesterday. i still can't believe it. i'm in shock. i cried a little bit. i can't believe all these people making stupid jokes and he's just died. got my first filling yesterday :(

sunday 21st june 09 went into town yesterday and there was an anti-racism thing at city hall. saw duke special; standing next to us. me, paddy, tasha and aoife went to a casting thing to be an extra in natalie portman's new movie. we went to aoife's and she made us the nicest pasta ever with quorn mince. we then headed to a guy from tasha's tech class's party in finaghy. i should never be allowed vodka. i got off with someone called mckenna cus his mate asked me to. then tasha told me to go and talk to cummings and we ended up kissing. i boked twice haha and he walked me home. he seemed really dead on. dunno if i'll see him again... we'll see...

monday 15th june 09 i dyed pierce's hair on friday. pink and blue. i was meant to meet him at 11 but he didn't bloody wake up until quarter to 4! on saturday, i headed into town then had a wee drink in brendan's, went to sp's for a bit and jess stayed in mine. had a lazy sunday then today i dandered to kfc with brendan then went to lenadoon. it was shit so i just headed home early. tuesday 16th june 09 had a really lazy day today. didn't leave the house. there's not a lot to do now that it's summer! i don't even have any plans for tomorrow...

thursday 11th june 09 i had my last exam today - went teribly. i'll be surprised if i get a D haha. on the other hand, summer's finally here! i dyed my hair pink again and everyone loved it. pierce is lookin me to go into town with him tomorrow then dye his hair. i'm to call for him at 11 but knowing him he won't be bloody up!