(29) Today-gym the exception-went by smooth like lindor chocolates. I looove lindor chocolates. Gym absolutely sucked, cuz we played a variation of dodgeball (everyone on their own, no teams). Adding to the fact that my leg still hurts, the stupid guys throw sooo friggen hard, like seriously, they don't care if you're a guy or a girl, cornered or in the open, if you're there, you're getting a ball flying wayy too fast at your HEAD. So that was a bad way to start off the day. French wasn't too bad, it always goes by really fast, we read, did grammar, then off to lunch. Lunch was absolutely hilarious, it was rehearsal and Crystal pulled out a Cosmopolitan...man, HILARIOUS stuff in there, we read all the horoscopes, tooo funny. History went by pretty fast, was more or less interesting, I did a whole bunch of drawings on my notes if it started to get boring. Math went by pretty fast too, thankfully, and-so far-I actually understand it! Quite the miracle, this hasn't happened since grade school. I also had a game tonight, whoo boy what a game! More than tripled the other team's score for a nice 25-8...I got at least a third of those points, a decent D and quite the nice long throw. That's not me being cocky either, I'm usually overly modest when I play, but when a throw goes far and straight, right to the target, it can't be ignored. My buddy's telling me that I played really well tonight (he's said it like, four times within the hour haha) and that some people from higher-up teams were saying I was really good...I'm quite happy, this is great news for the as-of-yet-unknown-tryout-date....haha. Today was a good day. Tomorrow's valentines day, I'm going to a pub/restaurant with my mom and step-dad, like we do every year. Friday I'm going to a hockey game, Saturday my grandfather's birthday party. Sunday...sleep. I'm looking forward to Sunday very much.

(28) Ugh, my leg is killing me. Today in gym class we played indoor soccer. Another person was about to shoot, so I made to kick the ball out of the way, but for some reason the angle was terribly off, and instead of kicking the ball, we both kicked as hard as we could-the inside of my shin coliding with hers. Normally, this wouldn't hurt too much, but for someone who's had quite bad shin splints for the past two years, it SUCKED. I tried to kick the airborne ball afterwards, but could hardly lift my leg-so I limped off the field. This was this morning at about ten. It's not almost five. It hurts to walk and to move it too much. Man, if this affects my tryouts in ANY way...Somebody's getting punched. Other than that, my day wasn't too bad. In french we're reading a book about-so far-a girl who gets pregnant because when her mom died she ran to her boyfriend for comfort and they had sex but he pulled out "avant que...que j'éjacule"...ew. Haha. However she got pregnant anyway, apparently her doctor had to explain why she got pregnant, wow how stupid can you be to not grasp that concept...sperm+ovary=baby...anyway. It's not a bad book, but I'm kind of annoyed. Clearly the ministry just wants us to read it because it "applies to us"...umm...right. Here's my problem. The book is in a series-it's the second in the series. Why didn't we read the first? The first was about a girl who's mother died. Why didn't we read it? It honestly applies to us no less at all than the pregnancy one. In fact, it applies more. In my first year of highschool, someone commited suicide. Either my first or second year, a girl who I know's mom died. This year, a young teacher died. As for pregnancy, I believe there's been one that I KNOW of...and it's an average school, you'd hear about these things no matter what. That's Death: 3, Irresponsible Teenagers: 1. Unless they used condoms that broke. I suppose that's okay. So anyway, I'm kind of tired of the ministry of education giving us material that they think applies to us...the worst part of it? We're in fucking french immersion. 99% of immersion kids are obsessed with their marks and their destination in life... or we're not stupid enough to go get ourselves pregnant, broken condoms again the exception (the intent was there, after all...). If they wanted to talk to us about pregnancies, give us some goddamn movie passes to go see Juno. There's a better past time. Math wasn't too bad, I'm understanding it, which is a miracle...History is quite interesting. I don't get to see Em at all for Valentines day, kinda sad. I'm not one of those people who gets really worked up for it...I just want an excuse to see him, really...haha. I was going to tonight. Now I can't cuz he has too much homework. I thought I would, too...well, of course, as it turns out I had a tiny bit of math. Then I thought I'd have the play. Well, it was cancelled. Looks like it's SM and Facebook for me allll night. I gave him his stuff yesterday though, and he gave me my present. Oh and the other day I got some of that Satsuma stuff. SOOO good. STILL waiting for worlds info...it's driving me crazy...who's the coach?? Do we have tryouts?? Where are they????? Well, that's all for now...no doubt I'll be back later...if not to write then to read and look for music...bye?

(27) OMG!!!! Songmeanings is back!! haha. Wasn't working for me last night or the night before, and I wanted to write :( haha. Well it's 7:00 and I have to go catch a bus...I'll blab on and on about nothing tonight ha...

(26) Well last night was fun, played Rock Band, discovered I'm actually not that bad at it. Glad I went, lots of laughs. Today I went shopping for the bf for v-day...got him chocolates and a huge stuffed snake, cuz it amused me haha. Now I'm going out to get him something hockey-related, in case he doesn't like the snake, seeing as it's big, fluffy, white with red hearts, and he's an 18-year-old semi-metalhead...should be interesting. I liked it though. So if he doesn't, I'll take it. Mwahaha...hooray for backup plans. Alrighty, I'm off to go shopping with mom, I kinda wanna stop off at the body shop too, they have this stuff called Satsuma or something, it smells soooo good. Later, more than likely.

(25) ...Haha I'm a quarter of the way to 100, woot. I'm going to my friend's tonight to sleep over. But Em asked me to hang out. Suddenly I don't want to go to my friend's as much...I'm sad. I miss the bf. Oh well... I'll have a great night anyway, more than likely.

(24) Went to the Scottish and Irish store today, was pretty sweet. Lots of cool things, there's a whole bunch of trinkets with names and mottos of scottish and irish clans, it was really interesting. For example, there's a pin/brooch of a sword with the name "Ramsay", their motto/saying was "Ora et Labora"-Work and Pray. That's on my mom's side. One of my dad's side's names is MacDonald-"Per mare per terras" -By sea and by land. However the best, by far, is the other name from my dad's side...I love it. MacDougall-"Buaidh no Bàs"-To Conquer or Die...isn't that sick?? haha. What a great motto. Well, I'm bored, here's some more facts... *I think Creole is the best seasoning/topping EVER...I put it on everything from noodles to veggies to various meats. *My eyes are blue with almost a bit of gray, but when I'm feeling an especially strong emotion (mainly sad or very angry) I've been told they become a deeper, intense blue. *I've been told I look like Jorja Fox (Plays Sarah Sidle on the original CSI)-though without the gap in the front teeth-and Ellen Page (Juno, X-Men: The Last Stand). *My favourite colour is and always has been red. *I like the smell of lilacs, satsuma, forests in fall, campfires and fresh-baked bread. *I've wanted a puppy forever but have never been allowed to get one because of my cat, who's old and doesn't get along with other animals. *I'm cynical, generally pessimistic, and very sarcastic *My mom thinks I'm very close-minded, I think she's wrong, I just haven't told her the things I'm open-minded about, I'm always on a rant when she calls me close-minded, what would you expect? *I want to watch Across the Universe while being really really high *I'll eat anything if it tastes good *I'll eat it even if it doesn't-if the price is right *Ex. I once ate a shrimp dipped in chocolate for a dollar...it was disgusting, but I had money. This was when I was fourteen or fifteen. *I'm not easily disgusted, to the point where I frequently have to pretend to be disgusted by something so that I don't appear too weird...I can't think of any examples right now, but I'll let you know. *Dancing for me is just plain rocking out in a car, or in a room with my sisters at my dad's, where nothing matters *One of my favourite things to do is to go somewhere where few or no people know me, and just do anything and everything I want to, because I can, because nothing matters and what people think of me doesn't matter. *Yellowknife is beautiful in the summer, it's up north, and no, there's no snow there in the summer. *I can no longer describe my taste in music, I realized this while I talked to Rey, who said he doesn't know me but we've known eachother for over a year and hung out with other people many other times...he asked what my favourite music was, and I couldn't answer the question. There are few bands (if any?) for whom I can listen to and love every song...no, there are none. *My favourite internet/youtube videos include, in no order: -Charlie the Unicorn -Paste by Brookers -Harry Potter by Brookers -OMG Shoes -The Internet is for Porn -Pachelbel Rant -Monster's gonna kick my ass -Harry Potter/Southpark 1 *The best music era in my opinion is anything from the 90s, some music from early 2000s *Best friends are generally a no-no for me, the closer I am with someone, the farther they become with their other friends, completely unintentionally *I rarely buy anything when I go shopping, but I love tagging along *I have no fashion sense, I have this thing against brand names and excentricities, though sometimes I like what people wear, I know I'd either look weird in it, or people would give me too much attention *I'd rather blend in than stand out, unless I'm in another city as previously mentioned *I've always considered myself more of a country kid than a city slicker *I love postsecret *I was once accused of trying to kill my old best friend by her family-this would be M.R. *I can't stand watching hockey unless the company's really good or if I'm actually at the rink, even then, I get distracted *My favourite kind of dog is border collie, border collie mixed with black lab is great too *When Super Smash Bros Brawl comes out for Wii, I'm getting someone with a Wii to go out to buy it, then I'm playing it. *If I won a million dollars, let's face it, I wouldn't give too much to charities. Not to say I'd be selfish with it, either; yeah I'd keep a lot, but there's other things than charities. I'd probably give some to cancer research as I have a friend whose grandmother has cancer and it makes me so sad, or maybe parkinsons or something...other than that...yeah. *I'm a sprinter, not a distance runner *Back when Video on Trial was still funny, it was my favourite show *I go to urbandictionary.com when I hear a word or term I don't know, rather than ask outright *Apparently, I've listened to Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional 48 times since November, and that's only counting the times I listened to it in its entirety-playcount doesn't count it when I change the song a few seconds before it ends *I've never broken a bone in my body, but I've had shin splints and a hyperextended elbow. *I play guitar, flute, and can play keyboard *I learned to play guitar by ear and up until this year could figure out pretty much any song with power chords, and some with finger picking and other chords...this year I took a guitar course, and now I can figure out many other songs. *My favourite song to play in standard notation is Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl *My favourite movies often end with the main character dying *I can't have anything artificially flavoured raspberry, it makes me feel sick *I love cooking and baking *I want to explore the United Kingdom someday *I've never left the country *I love painting with watercolours, though I don't paint as much as I used to *I'm more inclined to the arts than science and math, whatwith drawing, painting, languages, music and acting in some cases, whereas I hate math, like bio and some aspects of physics and chemistry, but am simply not academically inclined enough. *I pick up languages really fast, and my ear tuning abilities are quite good, seeing as I was frequently at the top of my class for ear training and deciphering what tone was what...yet have a conversation with me, and I'll often say "sorry...what was that?" *I have quite the dirty mind when I want to, and can often be heard saying "that's what she said" (despite the fact that i'm a girl) "...in bed!" as well as many inuendoes and double-entendres Holy man this is long, I'll be off for now.

(23) So, someone named Lizze (dizzy lizze) from the UK added me on MSN today...I'm quite curious as to who they are, let alone the fact that I don't know anyone in the UK at the moment I don't believe... I wonder if it's someone from SM? Then again my email isn't public, so...huh. This is odd. Suppose I'll have to ask when they sign on. I went shopping today with some friends, it was great, then went to my friend's party, was actually quite fun. We're going to the scottish and irish store tomorrow, I'm pretty pumped, I really like learning things about my heritage and all that fun stuff, I'm something like upwards of seven generations canadian, but somewhere along the line I have scottish, irish and english roots. Somewhere. I don't know if there'll be skating anymore this weekend, no one's told me about it. Looks like it's Scottish and Irish store tomorrow, history homework sunday...fun, fun. Can't say I'm really looking forward to it. On top of french reading and a bit of math... Still awaiting more information about Worlds. Coach applications were due the 25th, for goodness sake...oh well. I'm exhausted, long day and...aw, crap, I have to do a workout tomorrow...crap. Went to my aunt's and she gave me a workout schedule so that I can get in top shape for tryouts...it'll be so hard keeping up with it. Well, I'll be off for now, then...

(22) Well, I wrote a whole entry about not much, then stupid as I am, wrote over it when I'd pasted it on another site-thing so that I wouldn't accidentally erase it...sometimes, my stupidity amazes me. Well basically the gist of it was I got out of anthro, the rest of the day wasn't bad, fire alarm was pulled during rehearsal, almost fell asleep in math, Em's annoying me, tomorrow I'm going to my aunt's tomorrow to train for Worlds, I want more Worlds info than what they're giving on the site right now, have a party tomorrow and not sure if I want to go...etc etc. New stuff, now. My sister seems to have "had her heart broken" by her "boyfriend". The poor girl's 12, in grade seven. In truth, I think that that's too young to know what love is. You can think that you love them. You'll get your hopes up. Like them a lot, thinking of them makes your heart race. But does it? Know how I know there's something wrong with her saying she loves him? She had it in her MSN name, and it was right after they started going out. That is a relationship for show. Young and you think that that's what people do, profess their love for each other as soon as they're "going out". Well, as I was once one of those kids...it's not how it goes. Do you honestly think the kid you go out with in grade seven or eight will be the one you marry, the one you fall in love with? Nothing but puppy love. Even many highschool relationships are like that. You gotta play the field, but why rush it? Take it all easy, wait till you've hit friggin puberty first, my friend. "[I Love You...].x.NoMatterWhatYouSayToMeYouCanNever UnbreakMyHeart.x.^^&& ItsAllreadiiTooLate^^ SheDriesHerTearsAndWhispersToHerself "iiWishIWasHer"^^iiWishItWillEndSoon^^*TooWeeksOfMyLifeIwasLiedToo*" Sweet little sister, two weeks of your life is a mere fraction, you won't remember it ever happened when you're older and married to someone you really love, everything will work out. Please don't rush through life, take your time, enjoy it, seriously, wait until you're older, don't get involved with all that stuff too soon...well I suppose it's too late. Please, keep your head up, don't conform, you're better than those kids... I wish I could tell her all that. I wish she knew... Its usually something everyone has to figure out for their own though, sadly; because naturally, when people hear those words, they want to prove the words wrong or rush. Or they denounce them-"it's not true!". I think...it is, though. I know I still have much to learn-but it's all in the journey. In the words of Lester Burnham of American Beauty... "I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass... But I don't want to lie to her." I suppose, it's more the lucky ones who find what they want early. Oh, and American Beauty is an amazing movie. On a different note... MY STEP SIS GOT INTO A COLLEGE NEAR ME!!! That means I get to see her more, which is great, she's a year older than me and we always have lots of fun...I can't wait. I put it in my MSN name...partly to piss off Em if I can, because I never congratulated him or even talked at all to him about his getting accepted into a university 8 or so hours away (no shit, wonder why?) or his excitement to possibly go to two provinces away or whatever...yeah, sure, leave me. CONGRATS SAM!!! haha. Wow, I'm in a pretty good mood now. Sam and her green hair.

(21) I've decided I want to drop anthro...for ancient history. Ew. I don't even like ancient history. However I can't stand the people in anthro...it's one thing to say you don't have friends in a class that's not too bad. My anthro class however, is full of kids who are all clearly going straight to the deepfryers, and have no innitiative at all. Ancient history however, is full of really intelligent people who I'm friends with and who don't sit there and make really stupid comments and insult the teacher (OHHHH SAY WALLAHIIIIIIIIII.....shut the FUCK UP). Honestly, people say make new friends...but you know when there's one group of people that under no condition will you socialize with or go near because you know they'll just either 1) piss you off or 2) insult you for absolutely no reason...? Yeah. That's them. In the class you've got the jocks, the preps, the social outcasts and the "gangsters"...four groups I hate talking to, or going near...all that's missing is the sluts. Now, don't get me wrong, some social outcasts are amazing-I myself-sometimes-am one of them, and I can get along with some of them very well...however the ones that... say you're having a conversation with someone, you make a minor historical, technical or gramatical mistake that you're about to correct and they jump right in? Yeah. THOSE social outcasts. Sit by us all at lunch and talk about politics and quantum physics. Take joy in the fact that occasionally they are able to make a comment that makes themselves sound superior despite their social status. Might I mention at this point that I LOATHE social status, so this is saying quite a lot. Don't eat your lunches beside us, we don't want to hear it. Go eat your nuts'n'bolts elsewhere, kiddo. Other than that, math is going well, french too, gym is hell but I'm sticking through it, the more fitness the better and I love it. Although there's one guy who really pisses me off in the class, we were playing a form of dodgeball and I caught it so he was out (he threw it at me) and I almost whipped it at his head just for the satisfaction...then realized that doing so was not a very good idea haha. Man, I miss german like crazy...the teacher was amazing, I still see her every once in a while, but I'm so sad that I'll never be able to take the class again unless I help out one of her classes next year, and I'm honestly not sure if I'll have time...I'm gonna miss it a lot. I almost miss bio too, and ohhh boy is that saying a whole lot. I hated that class, but I miss the teacher. Had a game tonight. Dominated like nobody's business. Beat the other team by almost ten points, I got quite a few of them myself, some not-too-terrible throws, and a down-on-stall-count...second in two days, pretty sweet, no fast count or anything. Yeah...chances of you understanding all of that last bit might not be too high, sorry if you don't, if you do, YESSS!!...UF is amazing. I'm off to bed I think, I sorta have french homework that I didn't do that I should...apparently it could be the difference between a 77 and an 80 if it all comes down to it...and it's incredibly easy...sweet deal if you ask me!

(20) I just wrote one I know, but I read Mowthwaush's journal (really sorry if I wrote that wrong) Gotta say, I laughed HYSTERICALLY "Then she turned around and said something like 'And it's all Eve's fault! If she hadn't picked the Apple then women wouldn't get their periods.' Then Karen said something along the lines of 'IT'S BIOLOGY, [Chris]. EVERYONE HAS TO DEAL WITH IT, GET OVER YOURSELF.'" Wow, that's hilarious : D Anywayyyssss I'm off haha.