now i no wut jordan thinks of me and none of u will no cuz this the last journal any1 will read cuz im hidin it so haha but if u must no she asked me back out on thursday this week well im hidin the journal for now on so bye

i was playin i hate everthing about u on my guitar on full blast last nite and my amp started to spark and all of a sudden it just like sparked and was so freakin fried win i looked in it but before that my friend's bass guitar strings snapped in half thats rite all 4 strings and then 1 of my other friends drum set heads broke at the part win he slams his stiks on the drum before the chorus and my friend was playin so freakin loud well im gettin on rs cya

they never show anything good on tv anymore like ed edd and eddy that was freakin awesome but theres other things on my mind like this bet me and my friend made if i dont talk like a perve or cuss for the rest of the skool year i get a fuckin dollar just 1 dollar u may think its a rip off but i dont get money so a dollar to me is like 10 dollars to a rich kid im gettin back on runescape bye

my dad almost band me from 3 days grace (my fav band in the world) so im mad bout that then at skool we had to watch a gross movie bout sex transmidited desesise like hpv and herpys so im grossed out bout that and i g2g c yall l8er ill be on runescape my account is seeker3456

good news im not movin bad news my parents r still gettin a divorce but last nite i was on youtube and i was watchin shoes by kelly omg that was the funniest thing besides hey i like ur hair and gayest thing i have ever seen i mean come on wut guy in there rite mind wud dress up as a girl and go round sayin "shoes" well ill get on later rite now im gettin on rs c ya all

god i dont no wut to do my parents r bout to get a divorce and i have no say to who i stay with my dad wants me to live with him but he abuses me and makes me do all his work but he has all the money and them theres kiri who is bein annoyed by all these ppl and she just wants to kill herself but she like my sister and i dont let my sisters dy then theres jordan the girl that i liked but now im to busy to care but i still talk to her sometimes today we had a borin assimbly and she was leanin back on my knees while i held her up i she wud tilt her head back and we wud look into each others eyes she has the most gorgeous eyes but i dont tell any1 this but i just dont like to keep stuff in my mind without tellin or writin (in this case typin it) but shes so skinny but i understand y she is but im not sayin so haha anyways and then we went to lunch she had no money in her account so i had like $2 with me then i thot i cud give her a dollar so she wudnt starve i didnt mind it was my lunch money but i dont eat lunch cuz i never eat at skool i hate there food and then if i bring a lunch ppl try to steal good stuff like my beef jerky but she was so thankful but i still dont no it i still like her or not i g2g i wud type more but i g2g bye

my best friend thats a girl is kiri494 or taylor she is the only girl that will talk to me since the break-up

i am so bored my comp. is fuckin slow and none of my friends read my journal which is good cuz jordan and trey may hate me i just cant look jordan in the eye with out feelin wierd so thats y i dont hang out with out with her anymore but im still friends with taylor

oooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccccccccchhhhhhhh my brain hurts u try to get in a head lock and have a 1000 page history book smackin u on the head for bout 5 mins it hurts and i am just tryin to avoid trey from my skool cuz im tryin to brake pervy habits cuz i lost a good friend cuz of havin a sick mind so if u no who i am dont xpect me to talk like a perve anymore and i love the song Last Resort by Papa Roach cut my life into pieces this is my last resort suffication no breathin dont give a fuck if i cut my arm bleedin

hey im just goin thro a tuff time rite now my adopted parents r bout to get a divorce my family hates me sept my sis Saria. my little bro that im not realated to in anyway has a bf and it scares me every1 hates me encludin my so called friends i think there just tryin to cheer me up it never works i laf on the outside but scream and cry on the inside i need some real friends who will actually care bout me if u read this just hope that i can survive my life like it is