AUGUST 19, 2008 ME: Hey Bobbi, what's up? So I was really upset when I had to leave camp. I really enjoyed eating lunch with you when you sat with red cabin. I was sad when I found out that you weren't going to be there for sure next year. But we all need to move on sometime. It feels like I have known you longer than just this summer. I wish i would have met you a lot sooner that is how awesome I think you are. Prison ball and Nuke won't be the same cause you were the one that always made it so completive. Well I just wanted to answer back to what you wrote in my memory book i already found the rainbow. Alot of people say that I am too young to even know if I am lesbian or not but o well. When you and Bertha were joking with me at the night watch table I wanted to tell you but I just couldn't. It took me forever just to tell Brandee and Kim. Well Hope you have fun starting school on Thursday!!! hope to talk to you soon!!! -Emily BOBBI: Hey Emily! You know, I was upset to leave camp, too, and especially to see you leave! I'm glad you enjoyed my company, since not many people do; apparently, they think I'm too competitive and mean- can you believe that?! Anyway, you're joining good company with me and Bertha, and you didn't have to tell us for us to know. Just be yourself and be happy. I hope your family and friends are supportive of you. You always have me if you need me. And don't feel bad- I was much older when I realized. How is the climate at your school for that kind of news? It's no big deal at Newark, but I imagine it's a bit different at Utica. You know, even if I don't come back full time to camp next year, I'll visit. It's hard to stay away from there- especially if I know you and Kimmie and other people I like will be there! You should try to be a counselor next year! I hope school goes well for you. If you need help with anything, let me know. I will help, but I can't do it for you! =) Also, let me know what sports you're playing, and if/when they games/meets are, and Rach and I will do our best to get out there and support you! Talk to you soon! Bobbi

So tomorrow it will be two weeks since I have been at Camp O'Bannon and also seen my favorite people. Bertha, Bobbi, Emily K., Kimmie, Brandee, and Rachel "Saccy". So while I was there I came out to Kimmie and Brandee. When I came out to Brandee we were sitting on the swing set like usually after the campers went to bed. Well after I told her she was so happy and she told me that Bertha and Bobbi were. Bertha was married at one time to a ladie. Then she told me she only knew Bobbi was cause she ate a girl out once. so when it was the night of the dress reheral of charlie brown after it was over I had Brandee tell Kimmie for me and Kimmie was so happy she was going to give me a hug but I was already in the van on my way back to camp. Then the lasted night at camp we were all write in our memory books and I had Bobbi write in mine and she wrote. "Emily, I am hope you found the rainbow someday, I'm sure. My arms are wide open. love Bobbi". Then when camp was all over I tried to add her to Myspace but she couldn't cause she as a policy about add people undeer 18. But she gave me her email so I could email her. so I emailed her and told her that I already found the rainbow she was happy for me cause she didn't found out til later in life that she was.she told me that I didn't have to tell her cause she already knew. Then after a week passed of not being at camp I came out to Bertha she was happy for me. I told her that Bobbi said that I don't need to tell you guys that I was lesbian and bertha said Bobbi was right they did already knew. but Bertha wants to come to couple of my meets to cheer me on.

i just made a friend at youth to youth i met her at jume camp during the summer of 2007 but then i became closer to her during march camp of 2008 and she has help me alot. ME:hey can i talk to you now. KENSIE:im here. ME: ok well i hope this doesn't like creep you out or anything but the BIG reason why i was depressed at camp was cause when that kid asked me out i had mixed emotions like do i like guys? or do i like girls? or do i like both? have you ever had this happen be for? also i get depressed and stressed over the littlest things. KENSIE: that definitily does not creep me out. my best friend is actually a lesbian. and it is totally normal. and you know what, i think that you are so brave for admitting to me that soemtimes you feel that way. it can be very tough to figure out whether you are actually gay or not. but its about what makes you comfortable. and i am xactly the same way about getting stressed and upset and stuff over little things. but you know this isnt that little of a thing. and it is very ok that you are upset about it and i would definitelt like to hear more abouthow youre feeling about it. ME: I just found out that the whole side of my brother in law family is against gays and i don't know how my mom will react and i know my dad won't even let me step foot in his house if he knew cause he wont even let me watch ellen degenerers and i like to watch her show. but i know as far as friends i will have a lot of guy friend cause they don't care specially that kid that tryed asking me out. so i know that pretty much i wont be telling anybody but you. but i really don't know how long that is going to last. KENSIE: well i dont know exactly what to do in this situation. but my friend felt the same way. and her parents actually reacted fine. but i cant say that for everyones parents. but i am here for you. any time you need to talk. i try to check it every day but i dont always have time to write back. im going to ask my friend what she thinks you should do but i wont say anything about who you are. not that you would know here anyways lol but you might.