I'm sure we could forget it cause this black hearted wedding's enough to start a panic. We were clean for three days when you were running down the block. Eleven minutes sober now we're counting down the clock

THAT'S RIGHT BITCH. rofl! most of my titles are song lyrics if you haven't noticed yet :] Well...I don't usually do this but I'm bored!! And this is pretty clever. FIVE THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO SAY TO FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE 1. First off I'll start out with you! You're a loser. I think I secretly hate you. I can't stand how you try to get so much attention by telling boys someone called you ugly so they can show you some pity by saying "You are pretty". HAHAHA Too bad you haven't gotten that answer from anyone, even though you've tried too many times. You're not that pretty, and okay i'll say this since you insist you are. YOU'RE FAT. Maybe you should start running in PE and stop complaining about it you stupid whore. You won't listen to me when I'm telling you he's just gonna screw you over again. FUCK YOU THEN, stop telling me about your problems if you'll just end up telling me "IDK." After I try helping you. Fuck what is your problem? 2. Thanks dude. You're so nice :]. You're probably the only guy that hasn't said something bad to me yet. Californian boys are such jerks. But you've proved them wrong huh? :]. I don't have a thing for you. But you sure are cute. You're so funny and I love talking to you. And hanging out with you at shows and lunch! I can't believe that you actually talk to me. Hahaha. I wish you'd stop doing drugs though. I mean...I guess weed is okay. But fuck, stop doing crack and e. That shit ain't good for you. But overall you're a great guy! Any girl would be lucky to be with you. 3. AHHHH why are we so alike? And yet we live 6 hours away? It's horrible, honestly. BFFL. hahaha

Uhm well...I'm not looking forward to tomorrow. School. It's going to be weird going back to school after not going for about a week. No I didn't skip, I had a break, winter break. Ah school is such a burden. I've been a vegetarian for about 10 months now, but lately everywhere I go I've been hearing about fried chicken, which makes it really tempting because my favorite food used to be fried chicken. What is this? Is someone trying to test me. Well I'll prove them wrong, I HAVE to last one year before I start eating meat again. I don't really want to eat it again but I miss the taste :[. I don't agree with the business, not that they're killing animals. But HOW they're doing it. So basically I'm thinking about organic chicken, and organic chicken ONLY? But I don't know, I really want to see how long I can last with giving in :] I read a lot of Journals everyday, and I ask myself "Why is my life so boring compared to some others?" Seriously...my life is nothing compared to theirs! I do nothing all day, and nothing is thrown my way, when they have such random events thrown at them. I'm a boring person now.....I guess? So yeah, I didn't finish any homework over the break, and I don't even know what I need to do, honestly :D I hope nothing is due on monday. Well what I'm really worried about is this project in English, we have a group of 7 people and we're making up our own city of 500 square miles. It somehow has something to do with society. And we have a lot of requirements like environment, social security, government, and etc. I'm doing environment. And I don't really have a clue of how I'm gonna write it up? hahaha. This is pretty gay. Okay so.....I have another show to add to my list of shows, but I'm too lazy to go back and edit it so I'll just add it here since I'm typing this up atm. MARCH 7TH @ THE PBSJ Catherine This Son Of Yours And stuff :] There's a bunch of bands playing, and its a benefit show? But yeah, I liked old Catherine, but This Son Of Yours is a pretty good local band! And yeah, I'm just gonna go and enjoy hanging out with friends. Basically it's one time I can get my mind off of school :\ People keep telling me about their problems, and it's getting fucking annoying. CAUSE GUESS WHAT I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOUR LIFE All I'm trying to do is play my game of life, so pleaseeee stop telling me about your problems. I tell them "I DONT CARE" every time, but they all say "YOU'RE A BITCH, you're listening anyways" DAMN! I hate my 'friends' Soooo I want my lip pierced. ROFL I sound like a fucking poseur, maybe so. But I'm not one. I just want a fucking hole in my lip. But my moms not really budging. I've asked her like 2930829 times already and I got a "NO GO ASK YOU DAD" My dad actually said "maybe" But then he asked his friends for their opinion, and well..that maybe changed to a "NO THATS RIDICULOUS" WTF? It's a hole that closes eventually. Shut up and let me get it done. They said I can do it at 16. But I can't fucking wait. hahaha Whatever. I'm gonna get it done somehow. Oh and I'm planning to stretch my ears to at least a 00g :] I'm at 6g right now, but I need to stretch to a 4g right now. It's healed. Since it's been like more than month since I've last stretched my ear. I think i want to go to like 1/2 or 5/8 but I don't know if I can take the pain! Well lets see....I'm just going to do my roots homework later, and nothing else. Unless I remember that I have something due tomorrow. I can't wait till spring break. Which starts on March 24th! :] I probably can't go see TDWP (my husbands band) ;] but It's okay I guess....I'll just keep telling myself a lot worse can happen. I'm still hoping on warped tour though I really pray to god nothing goes wrong :[ Yeah I still kept my ticket band thing from the Arsonists show. I won't throw it away :D I'm gonna survive the rest of the school year with memories from that show rofl!!! it's not that much but I'll try to survive off of it. LATE!

GAYYYY I'm in a bad mood now no where to go i was gonna go see dance club massacre tonight but no ride :/ i feel like hurting someone later.

WOWWWW Today was sooooo fucking fun :D I saw Arsonists Get All The Girls and they were so fucking brutal! I think my respect for them has gotten much higher. The lead singer was pretty hot ;) And I also saw Moria and My Children My Bride and they were fucking sick too! But the other bands were kinda boring eh. But anyways I had a really good time. And I feel better I guess. Hahaha I don't think its gonna last very long but whatever, I got to hang out with this guy some more and he's really cool Dshdjhdsj I loved today :) Good night!

Okay so I lied about that being the last entry. Well todays a different day so I guess I'm not lying! Uhm yeah its about 2am and I can't sleep. I'm gonna say I feel worse now. I've been crying for like an hour haha. I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up. I need someone to talk to. :[ Help me.

plasticskies YES BFFLS PLEASE rofl last word: PARAMORE STILL SUCKS

...byes. (DAMN YOU FOR NOT LETTING ME FIT THAT INTO THE TITLE :[ ) ANOTHER ENTRY And it's only been two hours. I'm currently listening to The Scene Aesthetic....hehe :] guilty pleasure, yes? Something most of my friends don't know is that I have a horribly low self esteem. I don't tell people and sometimes it comes around and bites me in the ass, great :]. I'm far from perfect But I wish I was. Someone come over here to Nor Cal and save me please :[ I need a real best friend. I don't have one. Well I do, but I've really never met her so does that really count? How is it that I can know so much about one person and yet they could be living so far away? We have the time to realize that we were wrong I just can't stand this anymore so I'll put this in bold; ATTENTION ALL "PARAWHORES" aka naive people that are head over heels for this overly exposed band called Paramore. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE learn what actual music is! Listen to something with DEEP lyrics. Stop thinking Paramores lyrics are pure genius when you have no idea what that is! The only reason why Paramore has so many fans is because of MTV. The band members of this band need to learn how to play their instruments, and the lead singer needs to learn how to sing. HALEY WILLIAMS IS FUG, and needs to die. She's not pretty and stop looking up to her young girls, she has done nothing but made it big in a materialistic world full of ignorance. GET IT TOGETHER. Stop copying her haircut because it looks like a mop. You're not cool/hardcore/scene just because you wish to resemble Haley. I think someone that's actually pretty is JESSICA ALBA. A band with real talent is, in my opinion, All Time Low, or The Devil Wears Prada. Check them out girls, maybe you'll finally get a taste of what real music is like. Paramore shouldn't be considered as music, more like noise. .....HAHAHAH RANT :] If you wish to talk to me email me :o gh3770blaster@yahoo.com oh and by the way for those of you that don't know what my username means, I'll happily explain it. 5k1nn7wr1575 just says SKINNYWRISTS but I substituted some of the letters with words. And the reason for the username is because I have skinny wrists? hahaha there is no real reason other than that. If I could change my username, I'd change it to....hmmm lets see diamondlights if that's available :] I think I'm just gonna keep rambling. Because this is fun :] Uhm well theres this little girl that always gives me gifts since I've known her since her birth, and she's 7 I think. So this Valentines day she gave me a card with Hannah Montana on the front, and it says "YOU SHINE, VALENTINE" I hate Hannah Montana but I think it's cute that she'd save me one :]. It's always the little things that count. I text too much o: it's not my fault though, I have a sidekick. It's like a texting machine, and I just put it to use :] My foots falling asleep, again ROFL. Is this healthy? I don't want to die. Uhm yeah yeah yeah. I tend to hide my true feelings with fake smiles and put up a front. Right now, I'm miserable. But no one actually knows, other than the people reading this, which I think is really sweet of you :] even though you're just trying to pass time I need a new life Still miserable, but now just trying to find things to do

We cough the poison out !!! TheBlueNote, I recently read your journal and I couldn't stop reading it :] And so when I went to check on them, I noticed how you mentioned my journal!!! SO I would like to say; THANK YOU :] it comes from the heart? haha and I loveee all time low Anyways my day has been ruined thanks mom you're the best !!!!! If you couldn't tell that was sarcasm. I'm on my computer now...and I've received some disturbing news. I'm probably not going to the same school next year. I'll miss all my friends, I can let go of them :[ I just can't go to a different school. Change sucks Time sucks They are my enemies. It's 7:04PM right now and my life still hasn't gotten any better. luck loves me not tonight...