I need change and fast. Things just feel so boring and overrated. I'm sick of high school, sick of drama, sick of people. I just want to be alone. Anyways, I talked to my mom today about my dad getting transferred. Basically he just has to say where he wants to go and the company will send him. California. That's my first choice. Warm summers, mild winters. What could be better? Everything just seems to perfect and right. I can't even imagine the people I would meet. Bottom line, my mom said I could talk to my dad because she would love to move as well. Really, I have no emotional attachments to my school or town. I mean, yes, I have friends, but to be honest, I wouldn't mind leaving every single one of them behind. Not one bit. And my mom feels the same. So what's stopping us? Nothing is ever this easy... PS homecoming=bust. Pretty much I got a cold the night before homecoming and the first day is always the worst so I was really tired and not in the mood to dance. And, go figure, there was drama after. Blahhhhhhh. What else is new right? peaceloveMAKEAWiSH tonight take me back to the days of last summer

Yes. The Twilight series my be over popularized right now, but not 'cliche.' Wrong word choice. I, personally, love the books and I know exactly why. Yes, Edward sounds like a babe, a charmer, the perfect guy, and let's face it, most of us read the book just for him! But here are my thoughts on why this book is so addicting, and mainly for girls. We being girls obviously are constantly waiting for the perfect guy to whisk us out of our 'dull' lives and woo us with love and affection. Most of us know, however, that it's not as easy as it sounds. But we, including myself, still hope, wish, and dream for it anyways. Fictional character Bella got that opportunity and we all wish it was us. Well, at least I do, call me crazy. Here's my theory that kind of ties in with this 'perfect guy' idea. Edward Cullen must be a vampire in order for this to work. He has to be. Think about it, there is absolutely NO guy that perfect and there is absolutely no relationship that is that perfect hence the mythical creature; a vampire. See the similiarity? Vampires, not real, but we may believe in them anyways, and perfect guy, doesn't exist but we wish for them anyways. Don't get me wrong, girls are anything but perfect as well. But I believe that Stephenie Meyer made him a vampire simply to state the underlying fact that this relationship virtually does not exist. Anyways, I'm still going to hope for him! I'm now convinced there's an Edward Cullen out there waiting for me. You think I'm kidding... By the way, anybody else realize that they are in fact vampires now? Me and my friend did. I am a straight up vam-pire. Again...you think I'm kidding... peaceloveEDWARD

I love him. At least I think I do. What if we are truly supposed to be together? Right now, it seems like we are. But really, I'm a teenage girl who's very naive. I can't trust my own feelings. But it's hard. He treats me so special, or so it seems and then he turns around and treats the girl he 'hates' the same way...or hated. I can never keep up. It's difficult to watch though. Call me a whiney teen...whatever, doesn't phase me anymore. This is the time of my life where I'm supposed to be whiney and annoying and loud and complaining. Anyways, homecoming will probably be a bust but who knows. At lease I can dance with him for the first time. Ever. C: I am very excited. Hopefully, all plays out as it should. My dance coach quit last night and I'm taking it very hard. She's young and moving on to a new part of her life. So I wish her the best to her face, but cry when no one's watching. How selfish. Also our assistant coaches parents and grandparents are dying. So that made me cry even more. No one should ever have to deal with that. Basically, this is all a new, desperately needed beginning for us. Scary, but true. Anyways, I love him C: let me keep telling myself this. It gives me a reason for my insanity at this point. Can't wait till my class with him tomorrow. Call me nuts, but every party I've been to lately, his love interest hasn't been there, and it's just been me with him. Also...my class with him this year? Coincidence? Maybe but we have COMPLETELY different schedules. I just don't see how that matched up... peaceloveTALLAHASSEEDREAMIN

i'm at a loss for words. how do i even begin to explain the kind of hurt i feel right now. why do i even derseve this. i'm a damn good person. better than her. much better than her. best friend. worst enemy. that's how it seems to play out lately. i guess the good guy doesnt always finish first. i'm not used to feeling this. i never subject myself to this. because i know what happens. you get hurt. plain and simple. but why, when i try this once, do things have to turn out like this? it's not fair. it's never fair. look at me. see me. just me. god i hate this. where can you run when the only thing you wanna run from is yourself? the question i have yet to find the answer to. why me. just once i want things to happen. i don't wanna feel like this. what did i do to deserve this. why me. bottom line. it's not fair. nothing's fair. never was, never will be.