being shy, i've decided, is a disease. it's probably one of the worst personality traits to have. granted, shyness, to a point, is cute. but my shyness? not so cute. it's more like an obstacle that i have been trying and trying to overcome for years but have still not succeeded. the worst part is that i've realized, in order to cure myself of it, i need to completely retrain my mind. completely. and that scares me, a lot. to retrain my mind? thats absolutely insane. the way i think of people needs to change. everything needs to change. crazy. but i've decided its time to really buckle down and get it done. i know that my shyness is getting worse as i let it go on and don't fix it so something needs to be done. what's really scary is that i know that i HAVE to step out of my comfort zone, which hate hate HATE doing. more than anything. but it's gotta be done. wishe me luck. i'm putting myself to the test tonight. peace love LIVELIFE