so theres this concert that i was planning to go to with my friends (blg, atl) and the girl taking us, b's dad, bailed cause their going on vacation. suck my butt. so about a week ago we were all bummed. then a's mom suggested her awesomely awesome uncle take us. i was sooooo happy then. but then at school we found out that the catholic all boys school was having a dance that we REALLY wanted to go to. so we decided to ditch the concert. umm yea just watched videos of alex and martin and all that and i was soo sad that at 12 a.m. i called a and was like girl, you gotta get us there. she's like well idk cause i have to talk to my uncle and the concerts this week. i was like kay well just make it happen. if theres one thing i need right now, this is it. i cant describe the feeling im getting, but its just like i need to be at this concert i just NEED to. laugh at me. kay fine. but music=my life so suck mahhhh butttt. please everone keep me in your thoughts and prayers. this is all i will be praying about the next couple of nights. peace love BLG ATL I LOVE YOU

well i've been sick for three days and it seems like everything is changing. like my whole world...well its flipping upside down. i dont know whats happening. but i cant say that i hate it, nor that i like it, but somehow i feel, no, i know that it will make me stronger in the end. after all these people surrounding me are not going to be in my life forever and i have to do things for myself. i'm sick of following other people and their 'trends' and 'lifestyles' its just not for me. i just cant wait till ehhh i dont know 5-15 years from now, all these people can look back on their high school years. i know for a fact they cannot, will not be proud of themselves. i mean who would? im not trying to say that im better than everybody else, of course i've made my fair share of mistakes, but i can definitely see myself looking back and saying i really thought ahead and focused on what was real and true to me. and who could be ashamed of that? not me, and if anything, thats all that matters. peace love THINK