[36] it was quite unexpected, though not surprising when I snapped to, she was wrapped around me a friendly hug.

[35]A waking nightmare that's only worse when I am sleeping It's good to feel optimistic again. I think I'm getting my confidence back. I haven't listened to Jack's Mannequin in so long. Whenever I do, it can't last more than an hour or two. Thus far I only have 8 songs, and I played the heck out of them over the summer. I start getting sick of hearing it. Not really in a bad way, think of it as analogous to eating too much of something insanely sweet or rich.

[34]Into the sea inside of me to find a place where I belong. I spent the weekend bored and mostly alone, and my homework still isn't finished, but Deas Vail is playing and life is good. I slept a lot. It really helped. So refreshing. Something I've been idly contemplating is the mechanics of Friendship. I think I have it figured out, though. Perhaps I understood it from the beginning. Now I need a new muse. "Love is giving someone the power to break your heart, and trusting that they won't." Or something like that. I didn't realize until I read this; Apathy is the greatest obstacle towards Love. If you can brush off a heartbreak, it was probably indestructible all along. -- On another more personal note: Sorry for being so detached. Just trying to ride out this glitch in life called highschool with as few snags as possible.

Gah. My mind is falling apart. Like my brain is sick of overthinking things and has taken matters into its own hands. Thoreau was right, life should be simple. Emphasize: simple. It's dawned on me that depression isn't so much about being sad all the time, as much as it's losing the will to muster enough energy to pull out of it. I usually just chill on the edge of that rut bein' all mellow. But then boredom strikes and I'm forced to get under cover. God I'm glad it's the weekend. I need sleep.

[32]These hands are meant to hold This is my escape from History work. I hope you don't mind if I impose. I wrote alot some stuff but it started sounding too dumb. *sigh*

[31]This is the countdown This week (or.. last two days) has been weird. Those "out of it" days, except not the same. I can only guess this is a crash following the four day break. The burn will come soon enough. (But let's not get hopeful) I love this Essay book we have in English. The assignments, not so much, but the essays are quite brilliant. Something about the writers' voices.

[30] A song reminded me of this bit of trivia: The darker it gets, the easier it becomes to see the light even if it's small.

[29]Spend a lazy Sunday... Ever wished you could fall asleep in someone's arms, or with them in yours? It gnaws away at your core late at night.

[28] Something feels very, very wrong. But I can't figure out what it is. ..rather, who. And it's frustrating. For better or worse, I don't have the luxury of time to think about it - first mid-term exam is tomorrow, and I'm really going to need my sleep. So I'll retire for the night, and hope they recover. That sounded whatever is the complete opposite of elegant. ..But the time

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Orderliness (50%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.
Extraversion (13%) very low which suggests you are extremely reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
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