i feel like i'm missing out on the best times, here. i'm afraid i'm going to grow up, and everyone's going to talk about their crazy teenage years, and i won't have any stories to tell because i don't do anything. R.

attn Quit_Lollygagging re: thirty-three lsd is bad, and it fucks you right up. as does e. drugs seem fun but honest to god they complicate things, and make everything worse. take it from me, i speak from experience. yesterday was a terrible day. i haven't bawled like that since i was 5. i got this message from a close friend this morning: "well first off, i dont like that you're with him. and i never told you this, but i think he'll take you down a bad path or you'll spend so much time trying to save him, that you lose yourself" it made me feel terrible because i can see the latter happening. R.

what the fuck am i doing. i am such a fucking idiot. ugh. UGH! i wish the angsty slit-slit cut-cut girls on this website would stop acting all butthurt when they get called on the retardation of what they're saying. YOU put it out there, YOU took the risk. shut the hell up and take it like a man. or become an hero. what the fuck ever. R.

happy slurpee day. i feel like getting ripped. it seems that that's all i think about nowadays. HAH. ah well. let's just say i've decided to live. my toe is now out of the proverbial line. whatcha gonna do about it? i'm as unpredictable as a minefield these days. i'll do what i want, when i want. pce. i'm off to buy drugs. R.

summer blows. sex has been on the mind lately. hah. fuck me in the ass i'm bored. does that mean i'm boring? probably. whatever. R.

fuck fuck fuck. i am such an idiot. R.

i've said it before and i'll say it again. don't brag about cutting. fuck. it would be great to be fucked on e right now. it's gotten to the point where i'd try coke if i had it. that's kind of scary to me. i don't want to be an addict. R.

i want to get fucked up. R.

yesterday was my birthday! i had a good day. i played lazer tag with my boyfriend. it was cute, he'd never played before. R.

Sober, life is a prison Shitfaced, it's a blessing Sober, nobody wants you Shitfaced, they're all undressing the magnetic fields said it best. i need some alcohol. R.