Come online, come online, come online, come online, come online. I'm so pathetic.

Well I promised my friends I wouldnt drink this weekend, and i havn't. It was nice. I had some guys over last night and then me and this one guy just hung out and talked for like three hours.. It was nice. The most good looking guy drove me home from work again today. He is so gorgeous.. but he is the kind of guy that could get any girl he wanted.. and hes almost four years older than me.. but hes so good looking haha. Too many guys in my life, but none that I want...This guy that I have a huge history with keeps talking to me. He is so complicated.. Pretty much all thats on my mind seems so be boys.. but im not boy crazy.. just most of my friends happen to be guys. Yet I dont have a boyfriend.

My friends suck, but not really. I'm suprised a medication hasnt been invented that speeds up the maturing process. I'm going to invent that.. and make millions

I'm glad I didnt go to his house, and i was pretty harsh about it too.. Just to confirm, hes still a huge asshole no matter how many times he promised he changed or maybe he was a huge asshole because i didnt go.. He is still just a jerk

I'm shaking, and my hands are sweating. I dont know whats wrong with me..

So i failed that test so bad! but I feel so carefree.. its real nice. Then i skipped school and went for icecream with one of my best friends now I have lunch and then spare.. then I will go back to school and go to my easiest class of the day! after school I have track.. then i need to decide if i will go to his house or not ahh decisions decision..

oh and in response the "vulgar" the smiths are very good

So I have my fake id now. My friend and I went to a pub just to see if it would work, but they didnt id me anyways. So he bought us some drinks and we went to a house party. It is sweet how I dont seem to ever get asked for id.. even though i look young.. but i really wanted the waitress to ask me. Well im suppose to go to some guys house tomorrow. I cant decide if i should blow him off or not. I do want to go to his house.. and i know what will happen, but I know people would find out. I dont want people to find out.. tough choices!... he has such a nice body though haha! mmm school is stressing me out so much. so so much. Pure math is going to be the death of me.. well mostly just the trig unit... i cant wait to graduate! track is fun though.. Really im now excited for graduation.. just to be out of school

I wish he would stop jerking me around. He starts talking to me and telling me how much he liked me and misses me and junk. Then he just stops again. This just keeps happening over and over again. Im so sick of it. My best guy friend isnt mad at me anymore. I really like him. If i was him i would have stayed mad for much longer. Im so lucky. Really I wish the guys i liked werent so complicate. The guys i just want to be friends with are the ones that always like me. It makes life so awkward.

life is getting so stressfull. boo I love being Canadian. I really do.