well he's not talking very much anymore i guess i understnad how he feels but i don't feel that i still need him well one day things will work themselves out i suppose they always do school, work relatiosnships? hmm.. and i guess that i just don't know =) well i got gotta keep myself level headed and not let myseld get distracted...i can't waste time on a "could be" bob dylan coming to a city near me...yeaaa! well tonight im going to a party but i should be home a bit early...i have another looong badminton practice, last one before districts, i really want to advance so i gotta work hard!! then rugby is going to take over my life thank you god! haha anyways im going to nap then gget ready josephine_eva@hotmail.com peace

hello =) so once again i dug a hole bio test first tomorrow i guess i'll be fine, i always am... matchbox 20..long day = love right now and i miss him to death right now i think he's a bit mad at me though it actually hurts oh my so in badminton i made the sr girls signles spot which is amazing!! that makes me pro!! haha and my coach thinks i'll actually advance!! HAHAHA..you never know though! rugby is starting and im soo stoaked i neeeeeed to play ahh im so ready for it anywho new email josephine_eva@hotmail.com had to get rid of the old one, it just sucked haha night guys!!

so ive been digging the jet lately good rock out tunes, just blast it when your home alone! im pretty stoaked about the eagles concert this summer, i know its not until august but man, its gonna be sweet!! anyways, i got accepted to my #1 university, dal. im still really excited but i guess its easy too get accepted, the hard part starts in the fall... i just wanna say boredude's journal rocks, really good stuff, i'm definatly one of his stalkers (; well i should go and try and get some stuff done jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com you know where im at =) peacee!

why does he sleep in the living room now?! my bed used to be good enough for him silly cat is everything going to follow this trend of hating me?! ________________________________ fuck, its just a cat! _______________________________ _______________________________ I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints - The sinners are much more fun _______________________________ _______________________________

high school is clearly overrated the friendships are fake the trends are lame i want out so much but i guess i can't leave quite yet. ________________________________ i want to spend all my time with him, but we don't talk anymore, he says he's busy and i say i am too, but i should make an effort to visit him over break, i really do miss him... ________________________________ why can't i just sleep for hours and hours!! i've been so tired out but i have no reason to be, i'm getting fat because i don't exercise and school is falling because i just don't want to do it! just fuck it, fuck it alll. _________________________________ on a much happier note my brother is coming to visit me from alberta!! i get to spend time with him and i just miss him soo much! we actually got close because of facebook! i just love him =) i can talk to him forever about the parents and he knows exactly what i mean! he's too cool!! __________________________________ i'm really frigging nervous for university too, i'm going to have an amazing summer with "him"

This journal is marked as being private. FUCK I HATE THAT SO MUCH why would you do that?! and shame on you songmeanings for posting the link! booo :(

hey yoo! so guess what josie is currently doing? downloading yoga music i need to clear my mind hahaha my secret though, friends and fam CANNOT know, i'll look like a nerd but my doctor and guid. coun. both thought i should try because i went to my doctor about stress headachs and i went to the guid. coun. for help with university app. help and was stressed..so the answers i got were meditation..i'll let you know if it works lol so happy valentines day!i gave out valentines to all my friends and i got a bunch, gosh i love this day, you do not need a bf!! you can love your friends and family!!! anywho the cat needs a feeding! these are my thoughts for today! peace out guys!! xoxo

SHOUT OUT to wishing for you's journal i relate like 10000% good stuff anyways this is such a good song, from the OC which i now love, yes, i used to piss on that show, but i love it haha good music!! i posted the lyrics at the end :) anywho children, i'm gone to bed skipped my homework mabey tomorrow will be a snowday? god i hope so jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com add it but only if your cool :) peaceeee out Spoon - The Way We Get By We get high in back seats of cars We break into mobile homes We go to sleep to 'Shake Appeal' Never wake up on our own And that's the way we get by To where we get by And that's the way we get by To where we get by We go out in stormy weather We rarely practice discern We make love to 'Some Wierd Sin' We seek out the taciturn And that's the way we get by To where we get by And that's the way we get by To where we get by And that's the way we get by To where we get by To the way That's the way we get by That's the way we get by We found a new kind of dance in a magazine Tried it out it's like nothing you ever seen You sweet talk like a cop and you know it You bought a new bag of pot, said let's make a new start And that's the way to my heart To the way to my heart That's the way we get by To the way we get by That's the way we get by The the way we get by To the way And that's the way we get by And that's the way we get by We get high in back seats of cars We put faith in our concerns Fall in love to 'Down on the Street' We believe in the sum of ourselves I said that's the way we get by To where we get by And that's the way we get by To where we get by And that's the way we get by To where we get by The way And that's the way we get by And that's the way we get by

There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ships smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin. When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse, Out of the corner of my eye. I turned to look but it was gone. I cannot put my finger on it now. The child is grown, the dream is gone. I have become comfortably numb. a-freaking-mazing better than the beatles way better fuck the beatles most of their fans are posers nowadays 13 year old girls who buy the shirts... posers forever floyd peacee

what if you should decide if you don't want me their in your life that you don't want me their in your life.... first day of second semester that fucking bitch is all of my classes and on spare shes some fat girl who thinks she's sooo cool because she wears fake hollister clothes god highschool is uselessy dramatic and i hate drama so im just sitting here, did all my homework, had some soup, told my mother off on the phone :P pretty good day! i hate the weather soo much though i guess i just need a lot of coconut rum and a good party and a finee boy would be lovely but i'm certainly not desprate i always feel so tired and down, i hope im not depressed, that would make me worse if i know... i just get so frustrated with everything, and i get so tired with everything and i just want to stay in bed all day and skip class and work... i can't stop thinking, my mind is always going, its like a constant high, but a bad high... i just need some good floyd tunes, sun dresses and flip flops and the summer